well i did not win immunity. and the reason? i sucked... miserably. but hey, that's how it goes when you can't control ur nerves during live challenges.

anyway... i don't have much hope. charlie has the idol and was going to play it on me but it won't really benefit much, all that would happen is becky or someone else the girls wanted to see leave would leave and then he'd be without an idol next round, and probably be a bigger threat than me, so that wouldn't get him anywhere. and besides, erinn knows abt it because i got depressed and just caved in and gave her what she wanted... is she ublazrob?

rhetorical question, obviously i'll have to wait to find out.

anyway she could just go tell charlie at any time and i wouldn't get the idol from him, so i just basically took it upon myself to un-offer it to me before he had to... to make it easier, since i was a dick and i don't deserve it anyway. especially after sucking so miserably in the challenge to save my life *applauds*.

okay so... i am pressed for time unfortunately, for what will most likely be my new final confessional... since i'll be busy most of the day tomorrow as well. but i wasn't supposed to be here right now anyway so anything i send out to you from this strange lonely place called limbo is pretty much a bonus. not sure how good of a bonus... :/ but here is the conversation i had with charlie while we hashed out a "plan"... i'll sum up the plan at the end so you don't have to read it all but it may be interesting to you, i cannot say. lol.


September 20, 2013
sierra (6:24:21 PM): hey
Charles Herschel (6:24:42 PM): hey
Charles Herschel (6:24:45 PM): how are you doing
sierra (6:25:06 PM): i'm all right
sierra (6:25:16 PM): just seeing if i can wait a little longer to do my challenge
sierra (6:26:18 PM): how are you?
Charles Herschel (6:26:34 PM): ooh ok i did it earlier today
Charles Herschel (6:26:37 PM): i'm good thanks
Charles Herschel (6:26:39 PM): dead tired
sierra (6:26:43 PM): :-(
sierra (6:26:45 PM): sorry to hear that
Charles Herschel (6:26:52 PM): yeah idk just had a long day
Charles Herschel (6:27:07 PM): but i wanna force myself to finish watching the voice lol
sierra (6:27:11 PM): hopefully ur relaxing now!
sierra (6:27:15 PM): oh lol
Charles Herschel (6:27:19 PM): so i'll be here for another hour at least
sierra (6:27:23 PM): good luck styaing awake!
Charles Herschel (6:27:39 PM): thanks lol
Charles Herschel (6:28:03 PM): i thought u already did the challenge?
Charles Herschel (6:28:09 PM): since u knew what it was?
sierra (6:28:14 PM): no i asked the host
sierra (6:28:17 PM): last night :-P
Charles Herschel (6:28:23 PM): oooh :-D
sierra (6:28:30 PM): when erinn was grilling me i figured she'd ask the host and tell shane
sierra (6:28:39 PM): so it was best if i found out in case it was something i could practise :-P
Charles Herschel (6:28:49 PM): ooh yah
Charles Herschel (6:28:55 PM): it isn't unfortunately
sierra (6:29:04 PM): ya
sierra (6:29:05 PM): oh well
sierra (6:29:08 PM): does it take a long time?
Charles Herschel (6:29:14 PM): nah
sierra (6:29:18 PM): okay good
sierra (6:29:21 PM): well maybe i can do it now :-\
sierra (6:29:27 PM): give me a sec, brb
Charles Herschel (6:29:33 PM): yeah then we'd know the results soon probably?
Charles Herschel (6:29:39 PM): kk
sierra (6:33:58 PM): if shane has gone
sierra (6:34:38 PM): brb
sierra (6:34:40 PM): wish me luck
Charles Herschel (6:34:44 PM): he was on when i was on but not sure
Charles Herschel (6:34:47 PM): GOOD LUCK <3
sierra (7:07:49 PM): well i am never gonna get this
sierra (7:07:54 PM): i am brain dead or osmething :-(
Charles Herschel (7:08:16 PM): oh :-(
sierra (7:08:21 PM): ya
sierra (7:08:26 PM): i definately have lost by now, right?
Charles Herschel (7:08:31 PM): yeah
sierra (7:08:32 PM): i'm running out of time to be here :-\
sierra (7:08:34 PM): all right
Charles Herschel (7:08:39 PM): uhm
Charles Herschel (7:08:45 PM): are you trying the password?
sierra (7:08:54 PM): ya
sierra (7:08:58 PM): i am pathetic, i'm sorry
Charles Herschel (7:09:29 PM): meh nah
sierra (7:09:48 PM): :-(
sierra (7:09:57 PM): i gave up, the host said i was already over time
Charles Herschel (7:10:04 PM): oh kk
Charles Herschel (7:10:11 PM): did he say u were the last to compete?
sierra (7:10:11 PM): he's gonna post now
sierra (7:10:13 PM): ya
Charles Herschel (7:10:15 PM): =-O
sierra (7:10:17 PM): i'm really sorry dude
sierra (7:10:25 PM): i just couldn't figure out the stupid password
sierra (7:10:31 PM): i got all confused as to what i had already tried
Charles Herschel (7:10:36 PM): gonna sit on the f5 button
sierra (7:10:38 PM): and then i just got all nervous and lost it completely :-(
sierra (7:10:42 PM): lol
Charles Herschel (7:10:45 PM): oh :-(
Charles Herschel (7:10:50 PM): did u try noncapital?
sierra (7:11:24 PM): ya
sierra (7:11:29 PM): apaprently i mixed up ryan and jenn
sierra (7:11:34 PM): and those ones i was sure about
sierra (7:11:36 PM): ioooops
Charles Herschel (7:11:42 PM): oooh XD oops
sierra (7:11:46 PM): i thought i had tried changing them at one point
sierra (7:11:48 PM): but i guess not :-(
Charles Herschel (7:11:55 PM): yah i heard ryan was drunk all the time
sierra (7:12:20 PM): ya
sierra (7:12:22 PM): that was stupid of me
Charles Herschel (7:12:24 PM): Justin :-X
sierra (7:12:31 PM): thing is jenn did try to turn me and dave against eachother
sierra (7:12:34 PM): so i was stuck on that :-P
Charles Herschel (7:12:46 PM): oooh yah i understand
sierra (7:12:54 PM): getting drunk ruined my game too :-P
Charles Herschel (7:13:05 PM): XD
sierra (7:13:10 PM): that was so pitiful
sierra (7:13:14 PM): :-(
Charles Herschel (7:13:19 PM): aww :-(
sierra (7:13:41 PM): told you i suck at live things
sierra (7:13:45 PM): my nerves get the best of me
sierra (7:13:49 PM): and i can no longer think lmao
Charles Herschel (7:14:26 PM): xD yah it's annoying i was all nervous too
sierra (7:14:31 PM): :-\
Charles Herschel (7:14:35 PM): i think i did ok tho but shane
Charles Herschel (7:14:39 PM): is good at those things
sierra (7:14:48 PM): ya i have a bad feeling
Charles Herschel (7:14:52 PM): i just hope
Charles Herschel (7:15:05 PM): he knew less about ryan and hope being showmance
sierra (7:15:06 PM): i really let us down this time
Charles Herschel (7:15:08 PM): and that kinda stuff
sierra (7:15:11 PM): true
sierra (7:15:13 PM): hopefully!
sierra (7:15:37 PM): are u invisible on the boards?!
sierra (7:15:41 PM): lmao!
Charles Herschel (7:15:44 PM): yeah lol
sierra (7:15:44 PM): i just noticed :-P
Charles Herschel (7:15:48 PM): been for a while
sierra (7:15:59 PM): wow... i'm real observant :-P
Charles Herschel (7:16:04 PM): i basically did since i was voted out
Charles Herschel (7:16:10 PM): and then i returned and went back to visible
sierra (7:16:13 PM): wow
sierra (7:16:20 PM): posted
Charles Herschel (7:16:23 PM): but the round aras went i thought i was going home so i went invis already
Charles Herschel (7:16:56 PM): whoah
sierra (7:16:58 PM): =-O
Charles Herschel (7:17:04 PM): =-O
Charles Herschel (7:17:21 PM): yay =-O
Charles Herschel (7:17:39 PM): (i like being invis cuz it's annoying as fck :x)
sierra (7:17:40 PM): congratz!
Charles Herschel (7:17:43 PM): thanksss
sierra (7:17:46 PM): is it annoying?
Charles Herschel (7:17:49 PM): well
Charles Herschel (7:17:51 PM): for others
Charles Herschel (7:17:55 PM): to not see when u were on
sierra (7:17:55 PM): oh
sierra (7:17:57 PM): lol :-P
Charles Herschel (7:18:06 PM): and i was like
Charles Herschel (7:18:11 PM): oh i was voted out
Charles Herschel (7:18:12 PM): so yah
Charles Herschel (7:18:19 PM): gonna go invis :-)
sierra (7:18:45 PM): lol that's funny :-)
sierra (7:18:54 PM): well i am sorry i was no help
sierra (7:18:56 PM): i feel bad now
sierra (7:19:04 PM): glad you didn't need me to be any help tho lol
sierra (7:19:32 PM): any idea who you want me to vote?
Charles Herschel (7:19:42 PM): noooo
Charles Herschel (7:19:45 PM): lol
Charles Herschel (7:19:48 PM): i'm like
Charles Herschel (7:19:51 PM): completely
Charles Herschel (7:19:52 PM): blank
sierra (7:19:55 PM): :-P
Charles Herschel (7:20:04 PM): i also
Charles Herschel (7:20:05 PM): pmed becky
Charles Herschel (7:20:11 PM): and she's like uhm idk what to do :-)
sierra (7:20:20 PM): same here
Charles Herschel (7:20:27 PM): goshh ugh
sierra (7:20:28 PM): i dont really think she is with us :-\
Charles Herschel (7:20:33 PM): yeah same
Charles Herschel (7:20:41 PM): she was trying to figure out if i had the idol
Charles Herschel (7:20:53 PM): cuz i'm sure they wanted her to check with me
sierra (7:21:01 PM): ya she mentioned "we cant really do anything unless we have an idol" or osemthing like that
sierra (7:21:18 PM): erinn wants me to tell her if you tell me abt it
sierra (7:21:24 PM): but that goes with out saying
Charles Herschel (7:21:44 PM): yeah :-\ they are suspecting it which might make them paranoid and COULD help, but idk i think at this point we need someone to flip or else we're 8 7 6 regardless.
Charles Herschel (7:22:04 PM): i told her that (yeah = confirming we have zero idols)
Charles Herschel (7:22:48 PM): lol can't erinn stay out of our business?
Charles Herschel (7:22:50 PM): dafuq
sierra (7:23:09 PM): ya, well, i wish she would
sierra (7:23:19 PM): i feel like when she talks to me i have to talk to her back
sierra (7:23:24 PM): cause like no one else barely :-(
Charles Herschel (7:23:30 PM): yeah
Charles Herschel (7:23:37 PM): you/me/her
Charles Herschel (7:23:47 PM): are on the most
sierra (7:24:53 PM): ya
sierra (7:25:01 PM): at this point it's kinda useless to even save me, tbh
sierra (7:25:14 PM): you could atleast keep yourself safe
sierra (7:25:19 PM): maybe win another immunity or two
Charles Herschel (7:25:34 PM): ....
Charles Herschel (7:25:35 PM): ugh
Charles Herschel (7:25:48 PM): there's no progress with Kim?
sierra (7:25:57 PM): no
sierra (7:26:10 PM): she is just worried abt idols as always
sierra (7:26:25 PM): she said she doesn't want to vote me but that i still dont have much hope
Charles Herschel (7:26:45 PM): :-\
Charles Herschel (7:27:05 PM): well tbh
sierra (7:27:07 PM): and i'm sure they all just assume you have the idol
sierra (7:27:11 PM): so even without knowing
Charles Herschel (7:27:14 PM): if we are not gonna get this together
sierra (7:27:16 PM): they're going to act as though you do
Charles Herschel (7:27:37 PM): then they might split between you and Becky no?
Charles Herschel (7:27:51 PM): i mean, they will just get Becky to vote you
Charles Herschel (7:27:55 PM): so they have 6 votes
sierra (7:28:45 PM): yeah they will
Charles Herschel (7:28:49 PM): but then 3 of them will actually vote Becks in case i play the idol on you?
sierra (7:28:49 PM): and i'm sure she'll listen
sierra (7:28:54 PM): i mean she did tell me abt her dave vote
sierra (7:29:06 PM): so she might actually be honest with me, i'm not entirely sure ye
sierra (7:29:07 PM): t
sierra (7:29:17 PM): but she seems more interested in saving herself for one or two more rounds
Charles Herschel (7:29:23 PM): mhmm
Charles Herschel (7:29:26 PM): i agree :-\
sierra (7:29:39 PM): if u do idol me and she votes with us
sierra (7:29:42 PM): will it matter?
Charles Herschel (7:29:46 PM): well
sierra (7:29:49 PM): it would right?
Charles Herschel (7:29:52 PM): if they think she is with them
Charles Herschel (7:30:04 PM): THEN 3 of them will vote Becky
sierra (7:30:07 PM): then they'd do 2 on me and 3 on her
Charles Herschel (7:30:11 PM): and it would tie if i idol you
sierra (7:30:19 PM): oh ya
sierra (7:30:21 PM): so that is pointless
Charles Herschel (7:30:25 PM): (btw i'm not considering using it on her)
sierra (7:30:35 PM): well i woudn't either after her vote
sierra (7:30:41 PM): actions speak louder than words :-P
Charles Herschel (7:30:44 PM): well i think if they know Becky is NOT with them
Charles Herschel (7:30:56 PM): it might actually go better for us?
sierra (7:31:01 PM): ... that's true
sierra (7:31:13 PM): but how could we make that happen?
sierra (7:31:14 PM): lmao
Charles Herschel (7:31:21 PM): cuz then they are going to put more votes on you
Charles Herschel (7:31:26 PM): which is what we'd need
Charles Herschel (7:31:32 PM): tbh
Charles Herschel (7:31:40 PM): becky needs to like
Charles Herschel (7:31:54 PM): troll them?
Charles Herschel (7:32:04 PM): or at least
sierra (7:32:05 PM): how can we make her do that?
Charles Herschel (7:32:08 PM): tell them straight up
Charles Herschel (7:32:11 PM): that she's not with them
Charles Herschel (7:32:28 PM): yeah idk :-\
sierra (7:32:28 PM): that would be nice if she would
Charles Herschel (7:32:35 PM): yeah
Charles Herschel (7:32:40 PM): but she's so selfish
sierra (7:32:41 PM): what if...
Charles Herschel (7:32:46 PM): that she might not see the benefit of it
sierra (7:32:50 PM): i just tell her she really can vote me
sierra (7:33:01 PM): and then she really does vote with them
sierra (7:33:09 PM): and you just nullify one of the votes ?
sierra (7:33:21 PM): no cause then she'd need to vote with us
sierra (7:33:27 PM): if she doesn't vote with us it's pointless
Charles Herschel (7:33:27 PM): yeah
sierra (7:33:27 PM): lmao
sierra (7:33:36 PM): jeez i am thinking super clear today :-P
sierra (7:33:59 PM): i think she trusts you and i more than dave
sierra (7:34:12 PM): so without dave we might have a chance of getting her to vote with us for real
Charles Herschel (7:34:24 PM): yeah true, she trusted Dave the least
sierra (7:34:30 PM): like if u told her u were gonna null a vote on her?
sierra (7:34:38 PM): then we could all vote someone...
sierra (7:34:50 PM): and hope you null the right person and they split 2-2 ?
Charles Herschel (7:35:05 PM): hmmmm
Charles Herschel (7:35:06 PM): yeah
sierra (7:35:19 PM): mind you there is the issue of time
Charles Herschel (7:35:25 PM): chance of 3 in 5 i null the right person
sierra (7:35:27 PM): will we even be able to really talk to her before the deadline?
sierra (7:35:45 PM): if any of them are not voting me
Charles Herschel (7:35:47 PM): not really? idk :-\ like i'll be busy tomorrow :-\
sierra (7:35:50 PM): kim would be one of the ppl not voting me
sierra (7:35:58 PM): so it's better chances actually
Charles Herschel (7:36:08 PM): yeah
Charles Herschel (7:36:21 PM): but yeah then becky would have to act like she's voting you
sierra (7:36:23 PM): i'm gonna be busy most of the day too
Charles Herschel (7:36:25 PM): and she hates lying
sierra (7:36:30 PM): yeah we cant rely on that
sierra (7:36:38 PM): i dont think that's very likely to happen
Charles Herschel (7:36:45 PM): blahhhh ughhhhhhh haha
sierra (7:37:10 PM): i know
Charles Herschel (7:37:14 PM): what if they put 3 votes on you
sierra (7:37:15 PM): this sucks :-P
Charles Herschel (7:37:17 PM): 2 on becks
Charles Herschel (7:37:27 PM): does that even make sense?
sierra (7:37:34 PM): they might do that
sierra (7:37:41 PM): knowing becks is with them
sierra (7:37:44 PM): they can afford the tie
Charles Herschel (7:37:46 PM): but if they expect me to play the idol on you
sierra (7:37:57 PM): they may still do that even if they expect me to be idold
Charles Herschel (7:37:59 PM): then it's 2-3 becks going
sierra (7:38:03 PM): cause then the worst would be 2-2 tie
Charles Herschel (7:38:04 PM): yeah :-\
sierra (7:38:09 PM): yeah
sierra (7:38:11 PM): so...
sierra (7:38:13 PM): meh
sierra (7:38:22 PM): but honestly becks isn't with us anyway
Charles Herschel (7:38:26 PM): if we do the null plan
sierra (7:38:29 PM): so in my opinion we should stop worrying abt losing her
sierra (7:38:30 PM): :-P
Charles Herschel (7:38:31 PM): and becky votes u tho
Charles Herschel (7:38:35 PM): then.....
Charles Herschel (7:38:37 PM): aaah
sierra (7:38:47 PM): ...
sierra (7:38:50 PM): then...
sierra (7:38:54 PM): yeah then i'd be gone
Charles Herschel (7:39:05 PM): yeah unless we both vote her
sierra (7:39:36 PM): i'm willing to do that :-P
Charles Herschel (7:39:41 PM): but ugh that's such a short term solution
sierra (7:39:46 PM): ya it is
sierra (7:39:53 PM): what if...w
sierra (7:39:57 PM): we get becky to vote me
sierra (7:40:00 PM): like itell her she can
sierra (7:40:04 PM): and you null her vote?
Charles Herschel (7:40:19 PM): they'd still have 5 votes
sierra (7:40:20 PM): i'd probly only get 2 from the girls
Charles Herschel (7:40:27 PM): yeah
Charles Herschel (7:40:31 PM): so then becky goes
sierra (7:40:31 PM): they'd probly only be doing 2 on me tho
sierra (7:40:37 PM): and then three on whoever else
sierra (7:40:46 PM): hell they might surprise us and vote out katie or something
Charles Herschel (7:40:47 PM): yeah on becky
sierra (7:40:49 PM): or kim :-P
Charles Herschel (7:40:52 PM): mehh
Charles Herschel (7:40:56 PM): i don't think
sierra (7:40:58 PM): me neither
Charles Herschel (7:41:10 PM): why would they even do 2 votes on someone like that
sierra (7:41:16 PM): i dont feel that right asking you to use your idol on me tho
Charles Herschel (7:41:21 PM): 2 votes will never be enough
sierra (7:41:22 PM): especially after i failed so miserably
Charles Herschel (7:41:31 PM): uhm
sierra (7:41:32 PM): and it wouldnt really help long term
Charles Herschel (7:41:45 PM): well i really have no clue anymore
Charles Herschel (7:41:53 PM): like if it will help and how and yeah idk
sierra (7:41:59 PM): lol
Charles Herschel (7:42:04 PM): i think
Charles Herschel (7:42:12 PM): like if we can't rely on becky
Charles Herschel (7:42:17 PM): we can just give her up
Charles Herschel (7:42:20 PM): and not use anything
sierra (7:42:29 PM): and just hope she goes?
Charles Herschel (7:42:29 PM): tho that's risky
Charles Herschel (7:42:42 PM): yeah idk like if i use my idol
Charles Herschel (7:42:46 PM): a threat needs to leave
Charles Herschel (7:42:49 PM): not becky
sierra (7:42:53 PM): yeah i know
sierra (7:42:59 PM): i'd rather go to jury
sierra (7:43:06 PM): then have you waste ur idol then leave next round
sierra (7:43:11 PM): and being a bigger threat than me
sierra (7:43:19 PM): they probly would vote you before me next round
sierra (7:43:27 PM): so that would just make me feel terrible
Charles Herschel (7:43:37 PM): uhm idk
Charles Herschel (7:43:46 PM): if there are long term benefits
Charles Herschel (7:43:48 PM): then i don't mind
sierra (7:43:53 PM): ya i get that
Charles Herschel (7:43:56 PM): but since it depends on becky
sierra (7:43:59 PM): dont worry, i completely understand
sierra (7:44:15 PM): just the fact that you considering it make me feel special :-)
Charles Herschel (7:44:18 PM): what if i just tell becky about my idol?
sierra (7:44:30 PM): ... think she'd be more likely to help us then?
Charles Herschel (7:44:35 PM): yeah idk
Charles Herschel (7:44:37 PM): what if i'm like
Charles Herschel (7:44:42 PM): i'm using it on sierra :-)
sierra (7:44:48 PM): and then she'd know...
sierra (7:44:52 PM): it'll either be her or a girl
Charles Herschel (7:44:56 PM): yeah lol
sierra (7:44:59 PM): or david or shane i mean
sierra (7:45:02 PM): like one of them
Charles Herschel (7:45:04 PM): then she can't flake anymore
sierra (7:45:08 PM): actually
sierra (7:45:13 PM): that's probly the best idea so far
sierra (7:45:19 PM): and whether you use it or not is beside the point
sierra (7:45:24 PM): atleast she'll think you are :-P
Charles Herschel (7:45:26 PM): yeah
Charles Herschel (7:45:34 PM): if she runs to the girls with the info i tell her
Charles Herschel (7:45:39 PM): then uhm that's her problem :-)
sierra (7:45:42 PM): ya
sierra (7:45:46 PM): and it probly wouldn't change much
sierra (7:45:50 PM): they know i dont
sierra (7:45:52 PM): have one
Charles Herschel (7:45:59 PM): yeah true
sierra (7:46:00 PM): they are pretty damn sure becky doesn;t
sierra (7:46:06 PM): so they'll be looking at you regardless :-P
sierra (7:46:08 PM): unfortunately
Charles Herschel (7:46:10 PM): yes lol
Charles Herschel (7:46:19 PM): ok
Charles Herschel (7:46:20 PM): so
Charles Herschel (7:46:32 PM): i don't tell it to her like that way
Charles Herschel (7:46:39 PM): i'll say that i have one
Charles Herschel (7:46:45 PM): and then i come up with a plan
Charles Herschel (7:46:50 PM): where i use it on you
Charles Herschel (7:47:04 PM): and then we see what she says/does lol
Charles Herschel (7:47:45 PM): i won't like threaten her and say like sorry girl but im using it on sierra
sierra (7:48:29 PM): okay
sierra (7:48:34 PM): yeah you dont wanna threaten her
sierra (7:49:55 PM): well i like this idea
Charles Herschel (7:50:07 PM): yeah
sierra (7:50:09 PM): ... now...
sierra (7:50:15 PM): when can we talk before deadline?
Charles Herschel (7:50:19 PM): and i'll say i didn't want to tell anybody before immunity results
sierra (7:50:27 PM): :-)
Charles Herschel (7:50:40 PM): I'll be on around 3am EST tonight
Charles Herschel (7:50:52 PM): and then
Charles Herschel (7:51:08 PM): 5PM EST on Saturday
Charles Herschel (7:51:21 PM): until the deadline
sierra (7:51:27 PM): oh cool
sierra (7:51:33 PM): well that's about when i'll be home from work
Charles Herschel (7:51:41 PM): 5p?
sierra (7:51:43 PM): yepperz
Charles Herschel (7:51:49 PM): awesomeee
sierra (7:52:14 PM): hopefulyl you'll get a chance to talk to becky
sierra (7:52:18 PM): need me to say anything to her?
Charles Herschel (7:52:40 PM): hmm idk uhm well if she happens to talk
Charles Herschel (7:52:57 PM): just like act like i told u about the idol and stuff
sierra (7:53:09 PM): oh okay...
Charles Herschel (7:53:12 PM): i will send you a copy of what i am gonna send her
sierra (7:53:22 PM): should I PM her abt it regardless? later on tonight before bed or something?
Charles Herschel (7:53:37 PM): ooh yeah that's a good idea
sierra (7:53:37 PM): she already made that idol comment
sierra (7:53:47 PM): so she'd probly be displeased if i didn't tell her
sierra (7:53:54 PM): oh okay cool
Charles Herschel (7:53:55 PM): lol yah i just lied to her but i guess uhm now we do have an idol lol
sierra (7:54:15 PM): :-P
Charles Herschel (7:56:38 PM): so Erinn has to use her immunity now, and on herself?
sierra (7:56:46 PM): she can use it on others...
sierra (7:56:52 PM): let me check again to read the rules once more
Charles Herschel (7:56:58 PM): kk
Charles Herschel (7:57:11 PM): oh but it is a HII type thing then?
sierra (7:57:24 PM): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rWzcYbtZQrk
sierra (7:57:28 PM): no it's a regular necklace
Charles Herschel (7:57:47 PM): what's that link? xD
sierra (7:58:11 PM): oops
sierra (7:58:15 PM): wtf is that :-P
sierra (7:58:20 PM): http://oi44.tinypic.com/2yoddv5.jpg
sierra (7:58:22 PM): sorry
Charles Herschel (7:58:27 PM): if it's a regular HII then why is there no post in tribal abt it?
sierra (7:58:27 PM): and ummm
sierra (7:58:32 PM): more bad news i missed at first
sierra (7:58:38 PM): it's good past this TC :-(
sierra (7:58:41 PM): omg i am sorry
sierra (7:58:46 PM): see i dont deserve to survive!
sierra (7:59:10 PM): she has 12 hours apparently to post it
Charles Herschel (7:59:38 PM): oooh ok
Charles Herschel (7:59:44 PM): well then we could still target her
Charles Herschel (7:59:49 PM): if she doesn't play it this round
sierra (7:59:49 PM): oh, that's true
sierra (7:59:54 PM): i'm down for that
Charles Herschel (7:59:59 PM): same
Charles Herschel (8:00:04 PM): it would be the most obvious move
sierra (8:00:05 PM): beg her to keep me safe while i'm voting her
sierra (8:00:09 PM): i kinda like that idea :-P
Charles Herschel (8:00:12 PM): but we need to take a risk
sierra (8:00:28 PM): this whole round is arisk for me dude
Charles Herschel (8:00:34 PM): yeah lol
sierra (8:00:36 PM): i am beyond getting to choose if i take a risk
sierra (8:00:37 PM): :-P
Charles Herschel (8:00:46 PM): but i think we should make it WORTH all the risk
Charles Herschel (8:00:53 PM): ie. just making the biggest move possible
sierra (8:00:56 PM): exactly
sierra (8:01:01 PM): i'd rather go down fighting
sierra (8:01:09 PM): then lay down and give up like becky :-P
Charles Herschel (8:01:14 PM): yes LOL
sierra (8:01:17 PM): btw
sierra (8:01:26 PM): not sure if i am allowed to share this or not so dont tell just in case
sierra (8:01:36 PM): but ted just told me i for sure got AS
sierra (8:01:41 PM): before it was just being considered
sierra (8:01:44 PM): YAY
Charles Herschel (8:01:47 PM): yayy :-D
Charles Herschel (8:01:50 PM): congrats!
sierra (8:01:57 PM): so... i did that part of my goal atleast :-)
sierra (8:01:58 PM): thanks!
sierra (8:02:04 PM): i know it'll probly suck
Charles Herschel (8:02:07 PM): yeah that's awesome
Charles Herschel (8:02:08 PM): uhm
Charles Herschel (8:02:11 PM): yah lol idk
sierra (8:02:13 PM): but i just like to be invited... then decide later
Charles Herschel (8:02:17 PM): i hate AS games haha
sierra (8:02:21 PM): me too :-P
Charles Herschel (8:02:26 PM): so does this sound alright?
sierra (8:02:26 PM): i dotn kno whwy i try so hard to get in :-P
Charles Herschel (8:02:29 PM): Ok lol well I'm sorry but I didn't want anyone to know this before immunity results, but I DO have an idol... and it's not that I didn't want to use it last round, I did, but there was no clear way how to use it without wasting it.

This round I think the obvious target is Sierra right? I mean, you're kind of playing to be on their side so that leaves Sierra as the main target. So yeah I was thinking i could idol her and then we vote whoever we want.

Any thoughts?
sierra (8:02:59 PM): that is perfect
sierra (8:03:05 PM): i think you presented it in a very nice way
Charles Herschel (8:03:12 PM): it doesn't sound threatening ha? :-P
sierra (8:03:19 PM): and it really leaves her no options but to be votedo ut or vote one of them :-)
sierra (8:03:24 PM): no not at all
Charles Herschel (8:03:28 PM): haha i know XD
sierra (8:03:31 PM): it sounds like u r asking her
Charles Herschel (8:03:58 PM): should i add
Charles Herschel (8:04:04 PM): plz don't tell anyone?
sierra (8:04:12 PM): yeah probably
sierra (8:04:28 PM): but i dont see what advantage telling someone would be
Charles Herschel (8:04:38 PM): yeah ik
sierra (8:04:41 PM): unless she thinks there's a chance they, as a group, would vote someone else
Charles Herschel (8:04:53 PM): mehh i won't add it and then later i might ask if she told someone lol
sierra (8:05:00 PM): lol ya
sierra (8:05:05 PM): sounds more trusting if u dont
Charles Herschel (8:05:06 PM): yeah true
Charles Herschel (8:05:18 PM): yeah
Charles Herschel (8:05:24 PM): ok i will send it as it is
sierra (8:05:25 PM): true dat :-P
sierra (8:05:43 PM): well thanks for giving me some hope
sierra (8:05:59 PM): it would suck if u weren't here
Charles Herschel (8:06:14 PM): awww
Charles Herschel (8:06:15 PM): xD
sierra (8:06:38 PM): i'd be stuck just praying that erinn will play nice :-P
Charles Herschel (8:06:49 PM): lol
sierra (8:06:50 PM): and let me tell you... that is not in her wheel-house :-P
Charles Herschel (8:06:50 PM): she won't
sierra (8:06:54 PM): ya, i know
sierra (8:06:57 PM): she'll do anything
Charles Herschel (8:07:08 PM): is she really that alex person?
sierra (8:07:09 PM): i still think she is miss moricci
Charles Herschel (8:07:16 PM): idk them at all so it doesn't mean anything to me
Charles Herschel (8:07:17 PM): OH
sierra (8:07:18 PM): of course she wouldn't say it if she were
Charles Herschel (8:07:23 PM): yeah
sierra (8:07:26 PM): especially to me
sierra (8:07:29 PM): because if she is
sierra (8:07:33 PM): then she must know who i am
sierra (8:07:37 PM): cause she knows everything :-P
Charles Herschel (8:07:41 PM): lol yah
sierra (8:07:42 PM): but anyway...
sierra (8:07:45 PM): i have to go :-(
Charles Herschel (8:07:48 PM): ok :-(
sierra (8:07:50 PM): and i usppose yu probly do too
Charles Herschel (8:07:54 PM): yeah soon
sierra (8:08:01 PM): well, i'll be back in like an hour...
Charles Herschel (8:08:04 PM): actually i feel a bit more awake now
sierra (8:08:05 PM): but probly too late for u
Charles Herschel (8:08:09 PM): since we were forced to think haha
sierra (8:08:12 PM): that's cause u won immunity!
sierra (8:08:14 PM): hahaha
Charles Herschel (8:08:17 PM): haha maybe
Charles Herschel (8:08:24 PM): yeah i think i'll be gone by then
sierra (8:08:29 PM): congratz again on pulling out the most important win so far!
sierra (8:08:36 PM): other than the one that got you back, i suppose
Charles Herschel (8:08:37 PM): so tty tomorrow then, let me know in pm if anything happens
Charles Herschel (8:08:42 PM): yeahh
sierra (8:08:46 PM): okay wi will :-)
sierra (8:08:49 PM): i will*
Charles Herschel (8:08:54 PM): kk :-D
sierra (8:08:56 PM): ttyl! have a good sleep :-)
Charles Herschel (8:08:59 PM): have a good evening/night
Charles Herschel (8:09:05 PM): thanks! ttyl
sierra (8:09:10 PM): :-)





see, now, the joke here is that it took us that long of running through what-if scenarios simply to arrive at "we should tell becky about our idol and essentually force her to vote with us out of fear that if i'm being saved by that idol, she'd be the logical next choice."

now, i figure she must be privied to some either fake or possibly even real plan of one of the girls', mostly like katie's, to bring her further than another girl or one of the guys, otherwise she'd be foolish to work with them... so i'm not really sure if she'd feel worried enough abt being the next one out after me or charlie to feel forced to vote with us, but it's the best we have for now. and then that's it for our idea for now... that's where it ends at the moment, we're going to talk tomorrow and if she is going to vote with us then we'll figure out what to do - either use the idol or try to nullify the right vote in the hopes they split between myself and becky. but you never know, erinn could be telling the truth abt not wanting me gone - hell, kim could even be telling the truth, and maybe they have told becky something that is the truth, and maybe niether myself nor becky will leave... they'll let the idol be used (which it probably won't be), take out someone threatening to them i nanotehr blindside, and continue with the predictable votes next round. that would be nice... but that's most likely a pipe dream.

and so that's all i have for hope right now. i really would love the idol to be played on me, but unless there is some foreseeably advantagous outcome to charlie for doing so then i wouldn't expect it or feel right about it after what i've done so far in this game anyway.

unfortunately, i just didn't make the decisions i should have made at a couple of integral times and that's what has put me in the position i'm in... that and getting drunk and rampaging on david. that didn't help either...

but if i get to play again i'm going to be more careful. and i won't just fall for people's charm when i know they are toxic. i won't let myself be poisoned willingly with a smile on my face.


thank you for letting me be here. it's been a blast... from the past.

*cringes*

i'll probably still say a few more things tomorrow after charlie and i talk again... and we either settle on a plan, decide there's nothing we can do, or i find out he doesn't really want to talk to me because him and erinn spoke tonight while i'm asleep... :/

goodnight!

<3 you ted, amanda, and ghandia!

PS. now that both myself and charlie have told becky that i'll safe as well, she's gonna obviously have to go ask them if she'll be the next one out... it'll almost have to get spread around... which would make it maybe a little less likely that charlie would believe the knowledge that he has the idol came from me. since everyone assumed it before hand anyway.

i can only hope.

but the fun thing for me is that they'll have to figure out something to tell her, and they'll have throw one of their own under the bus if she does ask that question. and regardless, with them thinking there's a good chance i'll be idol'd, they still have to worry some more and keep strategizing and stuff... that makes me feel a little bit better about my position. atleast they have to sweat a little.

for now... untill charlie and erinn talk. :/ another stupid mistake on my part... why do i have to talk so much... i guess i wouldn't want to disappoint you, Ted... #loudmouthsierra

#shootmebeforeihavetohearanotherhashtag


okay now going to sleep for real. nite!