This sucks. Not because I liked Rita to the point of forever wanting to play this game with her. It sucks because it just basically shit on everything and anything I was doing on this team. I have no relationship with Newt, he hasn't been chatting with me much even though I have tried. Lily could be close to him, I have no idea. They may have a bond. Lily now doesn't trust me because I lied to her about it being a Cormac vote, when it wasn't. Everyone knew I was telling her this, because I told Lockhart/Rita and they were suppose to be doing the same as I---and Cormac knew.

But let's back up here.

So at the end of round 3. Literally, 7:47PM EST I get a message from Lily:

Lily Potter [5:53 PM]
any plans for the weekend?


Lily Potter [7:47 PM]
any chance of a rita vote?


So I was ignoring her the previous 2 hours, because I thought telling her it was Cormac was enough of a lie. I didn't want to like give her more false hope and be a dickhead. I have been given shit for doing that in other games and didn't want to repeat that history. But 13 minutes before deadline?? So come to find out, per Lockhart, he also got a similar message from Lily. When talking to Lockhart, Lily changed her vote to DoubleVote Rita.


Lockhart claims this is just a bad situation, because he didn't know she had a double and he just wanted to throw a vote at Rita to be funny.

I am sorry, but this is a tribe of 5 with one person petrified. You don't play games with 4 votes. Like what the hell, you idiot. You fucked me over Lockhart. Lily hates me. I have no relation with Newt. Cormac, I hope, didn't have any clue about this??

I mean if Lockhart truly wanted Rita to go--he could have told me, and I would have did it in a heartbeat. I wouldn't have cared that much to save her. I would rather have stayed in a majority situation with good graces with Lily and incoming Newt. But Lockhart just shat all over that situation.

Not only that, but does he not realize someone is going to be petrified again? So he basically just said "fuck you Ron" because Newt/Lily could want me out enough to vote me next round. I get petrified and that is already 50% of the vote. I fucking hate Lockhart.



I am trying to contain my hatred at this moment. I need to just focus on owning the challenges and getting the fuck off this tribe. What the actual fuck.

I feel like I am in a parallel universe of annoyance.



We get asked who knows the tribe best. Lily runs to Lockhart to do it. Lockhart acts like he values my opinion in side message. I am sitting over here just rolling my eyes. Like give me a break, Lily hasn't talked to me in like 4 hours even though I sent her like 5 messages to try and bond.

Fuck you Lockhart. Enjoy the limelight for now, dickhead.

Ugh.

So happy that my team won the challenge!! I did not want to go to tribal council again with this team. I get this feeling that even though I am being social and nice with everyone, I would go home. I think it would be between Cormac and myself. I trust and like talking to Cormac the most on the team. Lily seems fake to me, she talks about being a stay at home mom and eating lemon pie. *rolls eyes* She saw deer today in the woods on her way home. I wanted to ask her where was she on her way home from? Booty call when her hubby is at work? Like what the hell. Any mom I know does not have enough money to be a stay at home mom. Lucky bitch. Do not trust her. Lockhart is loved by Lily, obviously because he saved her last round. He still claims it was on accident, but I don't trust that shit. Newt stays on the surface so it is hard to really get a good read on what he is thinking. I don't have enough power on this tribe to try and align myself with him or anything. I think winning this challenge allows for more time to go by, and hopefully my worth on the team is better understood. I still think I will become a target at any tribal council this team of 5 goes to but if I can bond more then Cormac is with Lily/Newt/Lockhart--maybe I can just outlast him in a worst case scenario.