yeah okay i did that. the specific thing that has kept me from feeling secure is that i wasn't sure if anybody had me as their #1. i've already been driving myself paranoid and bonkers because of it. so, instead of being a pansy and waiting for someone else to plead their undying loyalty, i just went ahead and did it. i basically told wendy i'm 200% here to see this game out with her, beyond fab 5. asked how she felt about the alliance's longterm longevity, and she said she thinks people might start looking for other routes to the end around f8-f9, which is exactly the page i'm on. we essentially agreed that there's no point is distrusting our alliance anytime soon, but having options and connections outside of the fab 5 is a solid plan. so maybe i'll be less of a headcase now! maybe

Ayo Dean-O, Jeff Goldblum here. The viewers are wondering, has anyone really been far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like?

Jeff Goldblum @ 10/10/2018 21:39

Ayo Dean-O, Jeff Goldblum here. The viewers are wondering, has anyone really been far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like?

Yer drunk, Jeff.

Jeff Goldblum @ 10/10/2018 23:39

Ayo Dean-O, Jeff Goldblum here. The viewers are wondering, has anyone really been far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like?

are you serious? i've always been so far as to decide using go more like looking want do.

why did i have to tell them i can photoshop things good. i hate creative challenges. at least this isn't like the last one i did where i had to write a short novella by myself bc my tribe vanished. man this is gonna be a long night

really unimpressed with miami right now honestly! queen of telling everyone she's writing the story, then coming online for an hour to write a brief description of a party before leaving again! we officially unstan

NEVERMIND I LOVE THIS CHALLENGE

going out on a limb and telling lauren i really love and trust her beyond the fab 5 because i just know i might need her SOLIDLY with me down the road and i get the vibe that i can really genuinely trust her. and she seems so about that

lauren may be my new #1? i love wendy and i'm keeping her updated on this situation with lauren to a point, but lauren and i are having such an interesting and fulfilling game convo and i basically would die for her

life imitates art. apparently bianca just asked wendy to be in a showmance with her.

Dean @ 13/10/2018 12:03

life imitates art. apparently bianca just asked wendy to be in a showmance with her.

The kissing booth was a raging success

thank god i had the wisdom to cp my chat with ausenia

Spoiler

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Host Fetty [3:40 PM] joined challenge3pt1 along with 3 others. Host Fetty [3:40 PM] Hello Dean Ausenia, are you ready to hear our little spiel before we get going in an exciting game of checkers? Dean [3:41 PM] hell ya hi ausenia i miss u Ausenia [3:41 PM] You're going down DEANALD (I miss you too bitch please rescue me from this nightmare) Dean [3:41 PM] wow such hostility omg <3 doing my best Ausenia [3:41 PM] :heart: Host Fetty [3:41 PM] I will be sharing a google document that has a checkerboard on it When you open this document, please open it in an INCOGNITO TAB We want you to do this because it will prevent your alias from accidentally getting ousted To decide who goes first, we will play Rock Paper Scissors. Best out of one. Gimme a slick THUMBS UPPPPP if we're feelin good with the rules :thumbsup: Dean [3:42 PM] :thumbsup: Ausenia [3:43 PM] :thumbsup: Host Fetty [3:44 PM] sick sick so remember, incognito, and do we know how checkers works? Dean [3:44 PM] ya Ausenia [3:44 PM] yes! Host Fetty [3:44 PM] Awesome so below is the link to the game https://docs.google.com/drawings/d/1UyMHc6ann7GhLnCRKTOk_Xc7hntyoJU42lq5KlfZryk/edit Can you verify that you can each move the pieces? If not, let me know and I'll change it and repost the link Dean [3:45 PM] i can Ausenia [3:45 PM] i can! Host Fetty [3:45 PM] Perfect So now for rock paper scissors Please send me now one of the three options, dont post it here Just a PM Alright Dean wins, you decide who goes first Dean [3:46 PM] i'll go first Host Fetty [3:46 PM] Perfect After each move just post in here when you're done Dean [3:46 PM] done Ausenia [3:47 PM] done Dean [3:47 PM] done Ausenia [3:47 PM] done Host Fetty [3:48 PM] When taking a piece, mention each individual time you take it in here Dean [3:48 PM] done Host Fetty [3:48 PM] So if you take two, you have to mention it twice Dean [3:48 PM] noted Ausenia [3:48 PM] done Dean [3:49 PM] done Ausenia [3:49 PM] done Dean [3:49 PM] done Ausenia [3:50 PM] done Dean [3:50 PM] done Ausenia [3:51 PM] done Dean [3:51 PM] done wait nvm i think i was supposed to take one of ausenia 's Host Fetty [3:52 PM] wait wait Dean [3:52 PM] there now i'm done and i took one Host Fetty [3:53 PM] Sorry wait no more Ausenia [3:53 PM] was that a valid move? waiting for confirmation ok Host Fetty [3:53 PM] You made a move and said done so that move will be final Not the one that took a piece Dean [3:53 PM] i thought i violated the rules bc if you can take a piece you're supposed to Host Fetty [3:53 PM] According to my source Dean [3:54 PM] oh ok Host Fetty [3:54 PM] ok now i'm reading into it Dean [3:54 PM] ok i changed it to where it was before this move (edited) Host Fetty [3:54 PM] We're going to continue this way, yeah captures are not compulsory Dean [3:55 PM] okay noted Host Fetty [3:55 PM] Jumps are not forced, sorry for confusion Dean [3:55 PM] done, then Ausenia [3:55 PM] im ok to go now? Host Fetty [3:55 PM] Yeah Ausenia [3:55 PM] and none of my pieces were taken? Dean [3:55 PM] correct Host Fetty [3:55 PM] Yes corret Ausenia [3:56 PM] done Dean [3:57 PM] okay so i just asked fetty how much we're allowed to chat here and he said we can say anything we want before this chat is deleted done Ausenia [3:58 PM] oh werk Dean [3:58 PM] but idc if my tribe wins or loses and i'm willing to let this turn out how you want Ausenia [3:58 PM] done and took a piece Host Fetty [3:58 PM] Please delete the piece you took Ausenia [3:58 PM] kk frankly im not TOO pressed either, id love a week of safety but i wouldnt ask u to throw it lmao unless u knew u were safe ofc Dean [3:59 PM] honestly this is ideal bc if i could chat with anybody it would be you i'm safe if we go Ausenia [3:59 PM] im touched :heart: it's been so sad not chatting to u or hailey or miami or wendy or bobby or any of y'all Dean [4:00 PM] done, took one of ausenia's pieces and deleted Ausenia [4:00 PM] done Dean [4:00 PM] i know wendy is still into you Ausenia [4:00 PM] ugh i love her Dean [4:00 PM] done Ausenia [4:01 PM] done Dean [4:01 PM] i assume you're safe if y'all go bc joslin and frank aren't on much done, took a piece and deleted it Ausenia [4:01 PM] yeah i thinkk im ok, it's just never a 100% chance i dont think done/took piece Dean [4:01 PM] ftr dylan is SKETCHY AS FUCK we've caught him lying about idol clues Ausenia [4:02 PM] he'd be who i go for if we lose for sure i think i can get the votes in jos and santiago Dean [4:02 PM] done Ausenia [4:02 PM] but im not super close with either so im like :s Dean [4:02 PM] how close are you with maxwell Ausenia [4:02 PM] so fetty how will kinging work exactly? will you put a mark on the piece im good with maxwell Host Fetty [4:03 PM] Yes I'll mark it Ausenia [4:03 PM] kk Dean [4:03 PM] dylan asked me pretribes who i wanted to be with and i said you, max, wendy Ausenia [4:03 PM] done, got to the other side Host Fetty [4:03 PM] Hol up play for one sec Dean [4:03 PM] but obv i only ended up with wendy Ausenia [4:03 PM] LMAO...well obviously we know how i feel bc he put me in the "inactive" tribe Dean [4:03 PM] yeah fuck him Host Fetty [4:03 PM] King pieces are square Ausenia [4:04 PM] cool! Host Fetty [4:04 PM] Game back on dean your turn Dean [4:04 PM] done Ausenia [4:04 PM] yeah dylan's like the only reason im like...not THAT mad if i lose done Dean [4:05 PM] if dylan ended up on hecc he DEF would have gone we hate him lol the second tribes happened, he started a chat w us telling us we were his favorites and he tried to make a 9 person alliance with us LOL done Ausenia [4:06 PM] DKFKADSDSK IM SCREECHING the hatred for strong black females jumped out i guess Dean [4:06 PM] truly Ausenia [4:06 PM] done Dean [4:06 PM] done Ausenia [4:07 PM] done/took piece Dean [4:07 PM] so i think we're on a page of, either of us could lose and it's ok Ausenia [4:07 PM] yep! Dean [4:07 PM] wonderful done, took a piece i wouldn't hate losing bc going to tribal would help me figure out who i can legit trust here probably Ausenia [4:08 PM] done, took two pieces Dean [4:09 PM] done but just know that i think the ouija board was wrong. i don't see y'all getting pagonged wendy and i have talked about missing you & max a lot Ausenia [4:10 PM] done i agreeLMFAO (i didnt write that part if u wanted to know) i genuinely believe in yall over there Dean [4:11 PM] done Ausenia [4:11 PM] done, took piece Dean [4:12 PM] done Ausenia [4:12 PM] done Dean [4:12 PM] done Ausenia [4:13 PM] done Host Fetty [4:13 PM] wait what was the last move sorry i missed it just flicker it around for me Ausenia [4:13 PM] mine? Dean [4:13 PM] ausenia thank god we were paired here Host Fetty [4:13 PM] Yeah Dean [4:14 PM] the person i wanted to talk to the most Host Fetty [4:14 PM] Gotcha thanks Ausenia [4:14 PM] yep! literally same Host Fetty [4:14 PM] :ok_hand: dean your good to go Ausenia [4:14 PM] when i saw ur name i sighed a breath of relief Dean [4:15 PM] done i'm honestly kinda throwing this Ausenia [4:15 PM] done, took piece LMAO bless u babe Dean [4:15 PM] i feel really guilty about the tribe setup Ausenia [4:16 PM] yeah it def wasnt cute for me but u deserve to lose some dead weight too Dean [4:16 PM] we do i want to go to tribal just to feel better about where things are at for me Ausenia [4:16 PM] that's totally understandable Dean [4:17 PM] done Ausenia [4:17 PM] done, took piece Host Fetty [4:17 PM] I'll getchu ur king Aus Ausenia [4:17 PM] :crown: Host Fetty [4:18 PM] OK go ahead Dean Dean [4:18 PM] i've been trying hard as fuck for HBIC just to talk to y'all but i'm grateful maxwell won so i can at least connect with him Ausenia [4:18 PM] maxwell is a blessing Dean [4:18 PM] i LOVE him Ausenia [4:18 PM] he was my sanity rock on otra Dean [4:18 PM] i'm sure done Host Fetty [4:19 PM] Lets speed up a tad tho dont wanna be pushy :ok_hand: yall can still talk obv Ausenia [4:19 PM] trying! Dean [4:19 PM] fetty this is important okay relax Ausenia [4:19 PM] done/took piece Dean [4:19 PM] done Ausenia [4:19 PM] done/took piece Dean [4:19 PM] anyway let's both tell maxwell about loving n trusting each other Ausenia [4:20 PM] will do! Dean [4:20 PM] done Ausenia [4:20 PM] done/took Dean [4:20 PM] i don't have a valid move to make Ausenia [4:20 PM] LOL tru does it just skip to me Host Fetty [4:20 PM] Yeah Ausenia [4:20 PM] done Dean [4:21 PM] done. ausenia i love you pls remember me ok Ausenia [4:21 PM] I WILL ALWAYS. gl in tribal if y'all lose ily!!! Dean [4:21 PM] ily2 <3 Ausenia [4:21 PM] done, took! <333 Dean [4:21 PM] <3333333

i may have made a terrible mistake. i told maxwell about the majority alliance on hecc. i'm a disaster

i really don't have an excuse for why i just exposed myself to maxwell. it just felt right. i'm a terrible person who feels the most inexplicable emotional attachments