The only contact I've received from Jesse or Holli since tribal:

[8/24/16, 10:55:27 PM] Holli Rutkowski: If I'm really 100% on the outs can you just lmk so I know not to waste time on this game please

I don't think I've mentioned lately HOW fucking sick I am of my game getting blown up because Miller has trusted Jesse with super sensitive information such as "If Miller wins immunity at f7, he's going to give it to Kate." Which IS something Miller has said. WHY WOULD YOU TELL JESSE THAT?! ESPECIALLY after all this shit has already blown up in our faces from you telling Jesse that you'll cut him at f4 if he sticks with us???? Like honest to god wtf kind of strategy is this???? He keeps telling me he's "just tired of hurting Jesse" and that Jesse is trustworthy but what the fuck makes him think that? And it'd be one thing if it was just his own game but it's mine too.

Well this just in

[8/25/16, 10:21:29 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: The bad thing is that nick is thinking about flipping
[8/25/16, 10:21:39 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: But he wants to be with you

I swear to god, for a smart person Nick wants to make the dumbest strategic moves sometimes. He's thinking of voting COREY????????

[8/25/16, 10:36:50 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: He was talking about how he thinks jesse holli nick me would be a good final four
[8/25/16, 10:37:01 PM] Kate: why?????
[8/25/16, 10:37:07 PM] Kate: nick would win against NONE of you
[8/25/16, 10:37:11 PM] Kate: nick has a shot against corey
[8/25/16, 10:37:14 PM] Kate: and maybe even vic
[8/25/16, 10:37:20 PM] Kate: what the fuck
[8/25/16, 10:37:22 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: I can talk him out of this
[8/25/16, 10:37:28 PM] Kate: that’s fucking stupid

I am PISSED. I'm sick of Nick at this point. I'm sick of his stupid decisions and I'm sick of looking out for the three of us only to continually be hearing about the plans he's making to take me out. Okay so he thinks I can beat him at the end, but he needs to GET to the end, and he had 100% guaranteed allies in Miller and I. I'm just pissed off and spouting off to Miller in this and am not going to do what I'm saying here, but I do no longer care about getting Nick to the end. Good luck on your own, Nick.

[8/25/16, 10:42:28 PM] Kate: well fuck nick honestly
[8/25/16, 10:42:44 PM] Kate: i’ll get corey and vic and we can go to jesse and holli and tell them that’s how they can save themselves
[8/25/16, 10:43:16 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: Wtf
[8/25/16, 10:43:25 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: And leave me out??
[8/25/16, 10:43:29 PM] Kate: vote with us then
[8/25/16, 10:43:36 PM] Kate: i’m sick of shit getting ruined because of nick
[8/25/16, 10:43:38 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: What are you doing?
[8/25/16, 10:43:49 PM] Kate: i’ve had nick’s back 100 fucking percent this WHOLE game
[8/25/16, 10:43:58 PM] Kate: NEVER a single thought of turning on him
[8/25/16, 10:44:09 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: But he knows he can't beat you
[8/25/16, 10:44:22 PM] Kate: okay well fine
[8/25/16, 10:44:25 PM] Kate: now he wants to take me out
[8/25/16, 10:44:28 PM] Kate: what am i supposed to do?
[8/25/16, 10:44:31 PM] Kate: sit here?
[8/25/16, 10:44:34 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: No
[8/25/16, 10:44:39 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: Stop.
[8/25/16, 10:44:51 PM] Millerrr <3 <3 <3!: We will talk about this once I'm off call with him. I promise
[8/25/16, 10:45:03 PM] Kate: i’m sick of this
[8/25/16, 10:45:31 PM] Kate: in order for nick to even have ANY shot at winning he needs to GET there
[8/25/16, 10:47:12 PM] Kate: guess who no longer cares about getting nick there

Last round:

Me: Miller, Nick told Sean that he doesn't have an official f3 or f2 with us. Don't you think we should lock something down with him?
Miller: No, it would look weird and suspicious to just say something like that this late.

This round:

Miller: So, Nick is worried that you're going to take Corey and Vic at f5 because we don't have anything official with him.
Me: ...........

Miller is going to kill me if I don't write good stuff in here about him. :P HE'S AN AMAZING ALLY I SWEAR. I just usually use my confessional for venting purposes and not as often for writing about good stuff. I keep meaning to do a write up about what I think of everyone left in the game. I should probably do that soon seeing as I'm probably going home tomorrow lol. :'(

I don't really know 100% what's going to happen tomorrow. Corey, Vic, Nick, and Miller all swear they're voting Jesse. I feel like I probably have like a 50/50 shot of that being true. I feel pretty secure in Vic but I'm worried that Jesse and Holli are getting into Corey's head, and I'm insanely worried about Nick. I can totally understand why both of them would flip on me. I would hate it and I'd be pissed, but I'd get it I guess. I feel like if I can JUST make it past this round, I have a good shot at being okay. Because Miller will never flip on me, and I kinddddd of wonder if Vic won't either tbh? So even if the f3 becomes Miller/Vic/me I can live with that. I mean idk, I don't really care at this point. Whoever won't flip on me can have the third position, whatever. :P If people really think I'm THAT much of a threat to win, then yeah it makes it sooo much harder to get to the end, but it makes being at the end easier where you can afford to be less picky about who you sit next to. So I will always, always pick Miller over anybody, but as of right now, the f3 spot (if it is a f3, and I don't know or care what it is at this point) is up for grabs. Right now I just feel like literally everybody wants to take me out except for Miller. If somebody genuinely doesn't, then oh my god YES I will do everything in my power to protect you and take you to 3. I just have to survive this round. Please let me survive this round. I'm not ready to leave. :(

Corey: I am never, ever, EVER voting you out.

Okay I feel a little better about tonight.

my cat meowed while watching this and yours meowed during it...

omg they were talking <3