First of all, let me get off of my chest right now: Aubry Bracco is NOT the first boot off Survivor Battlefield 2: Oasis! I'm so proud!

So, like I said in my pregame confessional, this week is very very busy for me. Finals suck, and even when I'm not actively studying, I don't do well with those kinds of things weighing on my mind. I just can't really justify talking about tv shows with a bunch of people I don't know when I need to pass these classes. Since under pressure I am very very task-oriented, I decided to just give it 110% in the challenges. Can't vote me if we don't lose, guys!

This challenge was an interesting one to start off with because it's not just creativity. It's a teamwork challenge. I've always thought of it as a binding challenge, because usually that's the result, but I feel like this time it showed a bit of a divide. A lot of people seemed very, very comfortable sitting back for this one. I don't think I saw our leader Ibe once during the challenge.

On the other hand, Coach and I worked hard at this one. We both put in so much, and it's no surprise that Coach is the one person who seems as worried about his position on this tribe as I am. I think he and I could be a very tight alliance, which is exciting! I almost never click with anyone. I wasn't expecting it, but Coach and I could be tight.

(Joanna is my other friend on this tribe. I wouldn't say ally, but we're watching each other's backs. I like her a lot. )

Several people, seeing the writing and all the work it would be, jumped ship to the banner. That really annoyed me because I volunteered first and because my ability to use Photoshop is the one skill I have that I'm willing to brag about. The banner didn't require teamwork, and the writing didn't require everyone to write, just contribute. So I could have just done the banner, no fuss. Then we could have brainstormed the story and added new bits and pieces.

But no, Chris and Sandra both jumped onto the banner and I really tried not to show anyone up, but near the end while I thought others were writing (they weren't), I decided to take a crack at the banner without their ideas getting in my way. I wasn't letting us submit what we had.

So I'm the end I took over the banner, which I wish I didn't have to. The kicker is I also had the writing thrust upon me when everyone else was busy before the deadline. I have no confidence in my ability to write. I'm also a slow typist and trend to rewrite things 50 times. Me on writing was a bad call, but I guess the pressure helped.

Considering the amount of work I did, and the closeness of our score, I know that if I didn't step up, we would have lost. And given that I needed to step up like that, I'd say it probably would have been me that went.

This extra time is extra breathing room, now. I can spend this time getting to know my tribe and wedge myself in there. I'm not expecting any miracles, but I think I can make something out of my position right now. People on the outs tend to gravitate towards each other. I think I can feel it happening here.

I think I'll find my people. I just have to start looking.

3 days left until I'm home free!