It's Top Nine already and I'm a part of this huge six-person alliance... It might seem cool because I feel safe but once you realize you suck at the challenges and you have no chance of winning anything other than a maze or an auction - you start to doubt your position.

With Chris gone, I just don't feel like there are many competitive people left in the competition - Nick's basically on his way to becoming the winner at this point and I'm not really sure how much into the game Bobby is but everyone else seems to be fine with finishing 4th or making it to the finale and losing, I don't really know...

I can stick with my alliance and hope I end up with Jenn, Jerry or Shane in the Finale because I feel like they are the ones I could compete against at this point but the truth is if Nick's around any longer he's going to win this challenges and he's going to win the title and unlike everyone else I don't really want that to happen! (Sorry lol)

All of my "moves" so far (other than telling everyone to vote Aubry out) were unsuccessful so I don't have an argument to win the game other than 'we are bbfs give me a vote' so I'll be trying to flip on my team simply because otherwise my win is unlikely and after this round there won't be anymore opportunities.

The immunity challenge's coming soon and I'm hoping neither Jenn or Nick wins it - I want that necklace all for myself!

Dawg, Debbie and Tina are basically the only outsiders left and I really don't know whether they're that good and secretly working with everyone but me or fine with getting kicked out one by one but I want to talk with them and convince them that unless they go with me, they're going to be cut very soon.

Nick's obviously the number one target simply because he's been throwing Idols around everywhere and is pretty good at both challenges and making people feel comfortable. But he's also paranoid and he's not afraid of playing the idols so if I'm not immune, I'd be scared that some info is leaked and it backfires straight in my face.

Jenn has a vote nullify ticket and an idol clue and even though she's on like 5 seconds a week, I feel like she's dangerous if she ever decides to play for real.

So basically I can wait for Top 6 and hope Nick and whoever else decides to take me as far as possible and that I somehow end up winning because the other finalists sucked or I can take a chance and campaign against one of my allies to make sure I don't look like the goat of Battlefield.

I've approached Misty tonight and I've asked her about flipping the vote and surprisingly she seems okay with it... As long as it's not Nick. I never said let's vote Nick or anything but Misty's first reaction was no no no, I mean yes but not Nick because nobody will vote for him and I really do think some people just wanted to make it to the jury and vote for him or something but I don't know how I feel about Misty insisting on keeping him.

And the plan right now is to get Jenn and Nick's votes so we can vote Jerry out, he's kind of invisible, does nothing and is a perfect person to take to the Finale. Taking out right now isn't that risky and it increases the chances of me winning so I'm up for it.

The challenge is over and while I'm of course so flattered with being called the dumbest player and the one person that will never win the game I really don't know how I feel about being named the biggest snake just because it does make me feel like people don't trust me.

I'm not sure whether Misty is really going to vote with Nick and whoever to vote out Jerry but if she's lying to me then I might be the one going home and if I am truly in danger then I might as well campaign against her simply because she's a contender to win and it is obviously a huge move that might backfire straight in my face but what else can you expect from the biggest snake? :*

I feel like tonight's the first day that everyone's completely silent so I assume there is a big chance I'll be going home.

I don't know where Bobby's head is at and I do feel like he's pretty close with everyone but me but if I want to make a move I have to convince him to vote with me. He agreed to vote for Jerry but do I trust him? Not really. And Misty - I underestimated her - she is a threat and she came here to win, if I get the chance to talk with her I'll try to get Jerry out but if she doesn't give me an answer I think taking her down is also a possibility.

Anyway - I really don't know what's going on, I don't know what I should do at this point, I'm completely paranoid but I'll be trying to get someone out and hopefully I'll be around for another round. :)

Jerry's an idiot and has such a huge boner for Nick he's basically showering him with everything he has ever been told and it's so frustrating. Shane's so busy being sick and playing computer games he won't believe he's a dud and Jenn's still offline I really don't know what's going to happen this round.

I know I got the dumbest player title but Jerry is truly from another league.

And so I came to Nick and I said you either vote Jerry out or you vote out me because I'm so loyal... I didn't give him a proper reasoning of course but I'm not buying his BS at the moment and I'm hoping the vote goes my way.