it's always a pleasure nicholas.

if it's okay with you, i'm gonna answer my questions out of order. if it's not okay with you, that's too bad. i'm not getting your vote anyway <3

2. A recurring pattern I had in the game was “Debbie won’t talk to me” or “Debbie is hard to get a hold of.” For me, I’d send you a message, wait an hour, get a response, send a message back, wait an hour, get a response - do you sense a pattern? Why should the jurors reward someone who was in general, a very flaky person.

yes, i cannot deny that for a large part of this game i was not here much. but, not to excuse my own lack of activity at times... hardly anyone was as accessible as is typical for an org. but of course i sense a pattern, and i was well aware of how that would come across, but there was very little i could actually do about it.

during round two, my laptop decided it was time for it to die. since then i played this game only from my phone. mobile aim is a pain in the ass and often wouldn't load messages, and when it did it would have a tendency to eat new messages leaving me unsure of what needed responding to. when i was home or free i made effort to be here and i tried to be present in group discussions when needed, but i will also admit that a lot of my time during this game was spent with my (now ex) boyfriend, who had an issue with me messaging people when i was with him. it was a very hypocritical view of his, but i usually obliged nonetheless, and that's when my messages would come hours apart. there's no excusing that, and there's no forgiving that, because i am the one who put up with his controlling behavior as long as i did. no one is to blame for me flakiness but me, but i don't think i was completely off the grid or ever impossible to get ahold of - in fact, there were times that i'd message people and have to wait hours for a response as well. such as shane's boot round, he messaged me hey debbie, i replied within the minute, and i didn't hear back from him the rest of the day. other people told me about him messaging them during this time, but he did not reply to me all day.

so while my activity in the middle of the game was not the strongest showing, i still do think i'm a valid contender for the title of sole survivor. my finale opponent too was hard to get a hold of, and has a lot less to show of it than i do.

1. Justify your flip to the jury. Give us a strategic reason why I had to go at that exact moment, even with the 66% chance it’d blow up in your face INSTANTLY.

the f6 is where i broke free in a real life sense and an in game sense as well. that day i found out my ex was cheating on me, and i was a mess, but i was finally able to do what i wanted. i was online almost all that day before the vote, discussing every alternative that could go down except the one i knew i wanted to go down - the one i caused to go down. and the thing is, it wasn't a "flip" at all. i was always more tightly aligned with bob dawg than you. at this point in the game i was also much closer to misty, as she was the only person i felt comfortable sharing personal details with, and she was the person who helped me through my breakup. while, yes, i was aligned with you... it was obvious to everyone remaining that you'd have to go at some point. you were the biggest threat in the game, and you were immune for once. with the way votes were being split and my position as the swing, i had the perfect opportunity to possibly send home the biggest threat in the game. was it a huge risk? yes, yes it was. did you try and persuade me not to go to rocks so to keep us both safe? yes, yes you did. but this was where i took the game from your hands. did i know it would burn you the way it did? hell no. not at all. i didn't think you'd see it as burning someone who was working with me when i knew you were much closer to jerry than me, and i didn't think you'd see it as flipping either.

a strategic reason you had to go right then, at that exact moment, even tho it may have blown up in my face? well, for one, you going any further was much more dangerous to my game than bob dawg or jerry going further. bob dawg had protected me for rounds, being the nick to my jerry of sorts. and jerry was someone i knew i could have a shot against in finals, so i wanted him around and wasn't about to let misty and bob dawg completely run away with the game. so, at that moment, the best move for me was the exact move i made. it got rid of prizes, it gave me all the power, and it gave me a chance at sending home the biggest threat to me. it also presented a chance that jenn would go home, which really wouldn't have affected me negatively or positively so i can't say that would've been "blowing up in my face". and it made it possible that i'd go home too, but i'd much rather have gone out playing the game and playing hard than being a goat that got taken out at f4 because the other person had immunity.

so, i hope that answers your question. i do not regret that move in the slightest. i do not regret that it burned you. i was perplexed at your anger, yes, but i do not regret it. i was equally, if not more, perplexed by jerry's anger over this move. it seems to me that he should've been glad that i am the one who burned you, i am the one you consider the flipper, instead of him having to buckle down and vote out his biggest ally just a few rounds later. i kept him from having to write your name down, and in turn you get to write his now. but he continued to be mad about it as recently as two days ago. i never thought that move would've flustered him that much, but O WELL!

moving on to the jury ranking now.

#9 Joanna. can't justify putting the third boot any higher, even though she did fight hard to get back in the game.

#8 Tina. i never got an explanation from you as to why you hated misty and them so much, and i did ask. that's the reason you were targeted so adamantly and there was little us in the minority could've done to prevent it, but you going caused an opening for me and bob dawg that we both appreciated. if you had made amends with misty and co you probably could've been a lot higher up.

#7 Jenn. lol girl. you almost asked to be voted out and did very little of anything from what i could tell. i loved having those fake little fights with you in tribal answers tho. but thats all i got from your game.

#6 Shane. maybe it's because i know next to nothing about your game besides that weird alliance we had for like one round lol, but I didn't see much that you were doing in this game. our conversations were always short and i was glad you took longer than me to reply. that made me feel good. but that doesn't bode well for your standing here either.

#5 Chris. Chris controlled premerge Ifbith with an iron fist. anyone who opposed him went home, and that was that. if he had just waited one round at merge to make a move he could've gone so much further, but he was all about big fun moves. maybe that's where i got my endgame moves from.

#4 Candice. Candice was a firecracker and definitely had a lot up her sleeve, and the way she played made her into this awesome villain that still seemed really sweet. she was charming and funny but also ruthless and ready to cut anyone at any given moment.

#3 Misty. i personally think you're #1 but in relation to who would win in the end i have to put you here. you played a stellar game, made few enemies, won several immunities, and were loyal. you were overall a terrific ally, and a terrific social player.

#2 Bob Dawg. dude it's amazing how you were able to integrate yourself (and me) so well into the merge game after it would've been such easy pickings to get us off back to back. you were INCREDIBLE at the social game. always revealed the exact right amount of info to the right people. you knew what you were doing.

#1 Nick. hands down this was your game from beginning to f6. imagine if Tyson had gone in the rock draw instead of Katie in BvW. that wouldn't pale in comparison to you going in a rock draw. you were the biggest player of the game and had a hold on everyone. everyone was in your pocket for at least one round.

I definitely wasn't trying to invalidate your sickness dude my bad lol. I'm sorry you were so sick that's really shitty and unfortunate. glad you're better now. it's been fun bickering with you like an annoying brother the past few rounds.

when I mentioned you weren't around as much either I wasn't saying it to put you down but to make it known I wasn't the only one who wasn't always around. was not an attack. love your spunk tho <3

Nick me and you are supposed to have fights of passion. where are our fights of passion? why have you delegated this other man to fight with me?? I'm bringing this up to our counselor that's for damn sure