I AM SOOO SOO SORRY that this is so ridiculously late. LIFE JUST KEEPS GETTING IN THE WAY!! (I just don't belong here, I hope you understand, etc.) But now that Twisted 7 is all done and dusted I have more ORG time to allocate here. I haven't been INACTIVE by any means, I just haven't felt inspired to write confessionals. I think I may have long-lasting confessional burnout from Twisted AS & Rustic since I wrote SO GOD DAMN MUCH in both of those games, but I'm going to do my best to keep y'all informed here!!

There is no better way to start off a season of confessionals than with a CAST ASSESSMENT. I know cross tribal is allowed in this game, but honestly, I haven't engaged in a lot of it. As much as I would LOVE to have some incredible cross-tribal power alliance that links up at merge, that requires a lot of coordination, effort, and sneaking around, as well as someone I actually REALLY LIKE on the other tribe, and no one who fits that description exists right now. For this reason, my initial cast assessment will only cover my own tribe. HERE WE GO:::


I haven't had much of a chance to talk to Candice because our timezones apparently do not sync up and the conversations we have had, while they've been PLEASANT, have seemed kind of awkward and forced. I get the feeling she might be foreign because there is something unnatural about her conversational style/the way she talks. We had a pretty good chat about BBCAN which I ALWAYS appreciate, but I am not feeling any kind of ~connection~ with her at all unfortunately.


THIS WEIRDO.

He always messages me when I'm offline and by the time I get online he's gone. The one time we managed to catch each other, we had this BIZARRE exchange:

Fabio Battlefield
lol
which timezone are you in ??
Jenn Brown
pst!! what about you??
May 6, 2016 1:49 PM
Fabio Battlefield
gmt
is pst south pacific?
May 6, 2016 1:50 PM
Jenn Brown
haha no it is pacific standard time :) i am in california :)
Fabio Battlefield
hahaha
is california nice?
I live in another country
:p
Jenn Brown
its okay!! some parts are better than others!! thats cool though :) you must be from europe since you are in gmt. which country are you from??
Fabio Battlefield
europe?
no lol
I'm from South America
May 6, 2016 1:54 PM
Jenn Brown
since when was south america in gmt?? haha
Fabio Battlefield
I dont even know
what gmt is
lmao
is like 11 pm here
May 6, 2016 1:56 PM
Jenn Brown
its greenwich mean time so basically the time standard all other times are based off :P PST is GMT -8 because its 8 hours behind GMT
May 6, 2016 2:07 PM
Fabio Battlefield
:P

I forgive him for not knowing what PST was, but "I don't even know what GMT is"??? After saying you're in GMT?? What???????? And then replying with just ":P" when I explain it???? I'm so confused???


OK I don't know what to say about Jerry. I 100% know who he is alias wise and I can read him super easily. In every game we play together I know it's him like INSTANTLY but he never figures out that it's me and I feel like he falls in love with me all over again every time we meet under alias (I DON'T MEAN LITERALLY FALLS IN LOVE WITH ME BUT LIKE FEELS LIKE HE HAS MADE A ~GREAT CONNECTION~ WITH ME). It almost makes me feel bad because he thinks he's meeting someone new that he really likes but it's just BORING OLD ME who he already knows. I think this time it has gone EVEN FURTHER than usual though. Like, he has already confided in Jenn about so many personal parts of his life and pays her all these profound compliments every 5 minutes and while it's NICE, it's also just like a LOT and I don't want to give him any kind of wrong impression. I like him, of course I do, I've always liked Ben, but I feel like he is getting really attached to and invested in Jenn and it worries me because I don't want to upset or hurt him. Obviously when I'm giving him advice and supporting him it's ME talking and I am being genuine, but like... this is a game and while I know he's 100% loyal to me, I don't want the fear of hurting his feelings to stop me from playing the game. I know that sounds really savage but I just feel like there's already so much emotional investment in our game relationship from his side that I'm almost trapped into sticking with him all the way. THIS ENTIRE PARAGRAPH SOUNDS REALLY SAVAGE ugh but I promise I don't mean it in that way. I do care for him and I do enjoy talking to him but I just don't think I'm as invested in the relationship we're building as he is and I'm trying to be a little distant in how I respond to him so that it doesn't come off the wrong way but idk the whole thing is just HARD. Idk. He can be kind of oblivious as a game player sometimes and I worry about what might happen if he does something I don't like and I refuse to acquiesce to what he wants.


It's me! I'm the cutest and stuff


NAV is the absolute worst at pretending to be a girl. I actually wonder if he even really TRIES to alias or if his "attempts" are as much of a running joke to him as they are to me (and probably everyone else). IN ANY CASE I think we've connected really well. I'm hoping he doesn't know it's me because he becomes suspicious of me automatically when he figures out my alias and I'm really enjoying the dynamic of our relationship at the moment. I introduced her to Pokémon Showdown so we battle Pokémon online against each other pretty much daily (I destroy her 9 times out of 10, for the record!! And it's in random battle mode so I don't have like superior team building advantage or anything B) ) which I think has proven to be a great bonding activity and we talk a lot every day besides that. I definitely like her a lot and feel pretty close to her. Yesterday she shared the chest clue she found in the archives with me out of nowhere which I really appreciated. Obviously a number on its own doesn't mean much since the phrase is still completely unknown, but surely it counts for SOMETHING that she showed me that, right???? We haven't made any exclusive game related deals or even really talked strat in any meaningful capacity at all but I feel like there's an unspoken agreement of sorts between us. I AM wary of bonds she may have with other people though, especially Nick & Shane, so I guess I just have to make double the effort to worm my way into her heart and become her BAE.


Very early in the game, Nick straight up asked me if I wanted to be in an alliance with him and Jerry which was nice because I like it when people are direct, but it also gave me a little pause because I don't doubt at all that he's probably making similar offers to other people. Regardless of that, I feel like as individuals we ~click~ pretty well. He hasn't been around as much as I would've liked lately but the other night after doing the challenge together we talked for like 3 hours until like 6am EST when he went to bed (lol) and the time passed so quickly that I barely noticed it was happening. I'm pretty sure it's Grant and while we kind of run in the same ~ORG circles~ we have never really had extensive conversations or gotten to know each other and I feel like I'm meeting him for the first time in this game in a way. I'm not sure how much I trust him given the whole instant alliance thing and the fact that everyone seems pretty fond of him (especially Misty), but I'm definitely going to try to keep bonding with him regardless.


On day one I got good vibes from Shane, but I am no longer feeling them. He seems thoroughly disinterested in talking to me whenever I try which is problematic because he seems very gushy over his and Misty's obvious bond over Marvel heroes or whatever it is they keep going on about. I don't know what I did or said to make him not like me??? IT'S ALSO ENTIRELY POSSIBLE THAT I'M JUST BEING DRAMATIC and I catch him at bad times/he's just not a very talkative guy. Either way, I don't really have the inclination to keep trying to force communication out of him. It's fruitless and annoying, tbh.


Tina is a woman of relatively few words but I have enjoyed the chats I've had with her a lot. I haven't seen her online in 2 days but I may have just missed her?? I do hope we can reconnect soon because I definitely like her better than at least half the other people on this tribe.

I do think I'm in a pretty decent spot on this tribe. Fabio probably hates me for my GMT lecture and the fact that I never reply to him and like I said I'm not sure Shane likes me very much, but I think I have strong connections with Nick, Misty and Jerry and I'm pretty sure Tina and Candice like me well enough. If we stay in these tribes for much longer the other tribe will probably get exterminated completely because they seem to be terrible at challenges and SANDRA has told me they are all pretty inactive.

Speaking of Sandra, she popped up out of nowhere today and we had our first conversation of the game. 15 minutes in, she FLAT OUT ASKED ME WHO I TRUSTED ON MY TRIBE.

HOW BOLD.

When I gave a half-pie answer and didn't name any names, she let the conversation continue for a while before she asked "so who on your tribe would you want to end up with in a swap?"

GIRL... STAY IN YOUR LANE. WE DON'T EVEN KNOW EACH OTHER.

I told Misty what was happening and she said Nick had had a similar experience earlier that day, and then while Misty and I were playing Pokémon Sandra started bugging her about who she trusted and stuff too. Sandra claims she talks to our tribe more than she talks to her own which tbh is pretty much cruisin for a bruisin considering they keep losing. From the brief talks I've had with people like Bob Dawg, Bob C and Ibrehem, they didn't seem like AWFUL conversationalists. Coach is a weirdo, but he doesn't seem to be lacking in things to say, and I actually LIKED Debbie in pre-tribe chats. I think it's entirely possible that Sandra is just not making a good impression on her tribemates (SORRY I KNOW THAT'S SHADY). I will entertain her, though, because if I can get her on my side in a swap, that's another number I can work with. An impending swap is definitely my biggest worry at the moment, but I believe I have the social ability to navigate through one without it being too much of a pain, regardless of how the tribal configurations might end up.

I think that's all I have to say for now!! Again, sorry for the super late update, but I PROMISE I have still been around on AIM and helping with challenges and stuff. It's just taken me a while to be able to write anything. I AM REALLY ENJOYING BEING JENN SO FAR. I'll post more regularly from now on!! <3 <3

Nick Maiorano
daaaaaaaw <3
dat was adorbs
btw i wanted to give u a heads up
2 mins ago
Jenn Brown
what about??? D:
just now
Nick Maiorano
ok so basically
jerry and i got brought into an alliance
w/ misty and shane


"I KNEW ITTTTTTTTTTTT"

THERE GOES MY TRUST IN MISTY TBH