YIKES it has been a LONG time since I confessed. This might be long.
So we ended up winning endurance and that round was fairly uneventful. This was the round I started talking to Sandra and I have been talking a lot to her ever since. We have grown quite close now and she has very quickly climbed to being my #1 ally on that tribe. Which is amazing and props to her social game. It was also good to win because it meant Candice was safe for another round. She has been feeling very worried about her place in the tribe so this helped. She has been busy with exams IRL and hasn't been able to be online a whole lot. I usually catch her for a good hour or so in the morning when I am coming into work. But no one else really seems to be able to talk to her much, if at all. A round of safety was very much required for her and I
This round has been somewhat eventful so far. Firstly, Nick shared his idol clue with me.
"Hey, wasn't there a Toucan last season?
What happened to him?
Hmm, maybe John Rocker got hungry...
Anyways, I think a crow dropped this.
Maybe it'll be useful to you?"
He said he was apprehensive about sharing it but said he considered me his #1 ally so he showed me. I dunno if I totally buy that but I'll take it for now. We discussed what the clue could mean but ultimately left thinking we would need more clues, at least the # at the end to make any progress whatsoever.
Shane finally asked me about working together during this round. It was an awkward chat where he said he was nervous about asking me. I am undecided on how I feel about Shane as a whole. There are like sparks of good conversation with him every now and then before they fizzle out real fast. This talk that we had of an alliance expanded a bit into mentioning a possible 4-way between Shane, Jerry, Nick and I. I know Nick has a particular affinity for both Shane and Jerry so I feel KINDA stuck i this situation. I let Nick know about this of course and he said it made sense and all. There has been no progress on this yet since we won and all. And I have yet to bring it up with Jerry/Jerry has yet to being it up with me. Shane had mentioned he would talk to Jerry about it. I wonder if Jerry is doing the thing that I do where I am deliberately waiting to not be the one to bring it up in fear of being the one with higher visibility/target.
I had a GREAT chat with Tina this round about her personal life. I shared too and I felt we really bonded this round. I really REALLY want to spill mu guts to Tina about everything. The alliance I have w/ Nick and Fabio, the brewing alliance w/ Shane and Jerry, my general closeness to Jenn, who I talk to on the other tribe etc. But I am REIGNING myself in. My usual philosophy is that I don't sell out an alliance unless I feel like I HAVE to. ... that's not very smart. I should not do this. I think I am gonna see how tomorrow goes and decide what I will do with Tina. I know for a fact that I WANT Tina with me for the long haul. She is just so sweet.
Today evening after the challenge I ended up finding the clue hidden in the voting history in the archives
That HAS to be the 3 digits at the end. I immediately shared this clue with Nick. AND Tina lol :x Aaaaaaand I just shared it with Jenn. I need help. BASICALLY my intention was to try and use this as a way to build trust. This has extreme pros and cons obviously in that there's no certainty that they will tell me if the crack the code. But, IDRC. Hopefully, I am not doing it in an obviously selfish manner so it comes off as genuine. Which it is at least with Tina and Nick. I am reciprocating the trust Nick showed in me and I just REALLY like Tina lol. I haven't revealed Nick's clue to anyone yet. I feel like I owe Nick that much.
I haven't talked about Jenn all that much. We have a fun little bond. We play Pokemon Showdown every now and then where she kicks my ass. We have a lowkey flirting thing going on (I think) In general I have a lot of fun talking to her. BUT no ~serious~ talks about alliances has come up (we joked about being an F2 in our first convo). And atm I am not going to be the one to bring them up. I don't want to overextend myself. I am sure she is thinking along these lines that since I haven't brought up anything that I have things going on with other people. But I am not caving. Call me hard to get LOL.
Then there's Candice. I ADORE Candice but I am unsure if I can protect her from elimination. Candice is, as sad as this makes me, the path of least resistance when it comes to a voting out option on our current tribe. She doesn't get to talk to anyone but me (or so she says). She said she was able to talk to Nick and Jenn a bit last night so it's a start. I am just very worried what will happen when we eventually have to go to tribal council. NOT looking forward to that day at all tbh.
On the other tribe, my bonds with Ib, BobDawg, Coach and Daugherty seem to have stagnated. The GREAT chats I used to have with these boys are a distant memory now. Instead I have been getting to talk to Sandra more and more. I am liking her a lot. I actually spilled somewhat useful info to Sandra about alliances over here. She says there are none over there and everyone is in "As long as it isn't me mode" She said that it's looking like a unanimous Coach boot since Coach missed the challenge. I am not so sure about that because from my talks with Coach, he was pretty damn charming. I tried to fish for info from Debbie and Joanna but it went nowhere. Joanna straight up said she won't say because in the past she has been burned for giving out too much info. I don't have anything against her wanting to keep her cards close to the vest. In fact I respect her being upfront about it to me. I was HOPING for like an Ib boot tbh. Now I just gotta hope it's not Sandra going.
Sorry this one confessional entry is such a mess. I'll try to be more regular about updates so that it's not so long and all over the place.
Misty: o_O ... she is their best competitor. why would they do that and how do you know
Candice: :secret
GEE, THANKS FOR THAT RIVETING CONVERSATION.
I am surprised that this is happening and SAD tbh. Joanna has put a ton of effort into this game already. And IDK if this means Sandra will be on the outs over there. UGH.
Apparently the "sides" are Joanna, Sandra, Debbie v/s BobDawg, Chris, Ib with Coach and Crowley as the swings. And Coach, Crowley are siding with the boys.
I am being nosy and talking to both Sandra and Coach. I am relaying what Coach is saying to me to Sandra in hopes of trying to salvage Sandra's position on the tribe. IDK if I am helping or hurting either of them but I am bored and need something to do LOLZ.
I hope I am not being seen as a challenge threat in particular. I feel like we OVERALL have a stronger team. I am of course motivated to keep winning partly because of Candice. I don't know if she can make it through a TC. MAYBE at the expense of Fabio? Which isn't ideal either but it's better than Candice going.
I feel GOOD on this tribe and I feel GOOD about the cross tribal relationships I have too (Sandra and Coach mainly but BobDawg and Chris are also options). I feel like if I can just dial it back a LITTLE I will be positioned perfectly to get to merge with enough people wanting to work with me.
I think if a swap doesn't happen at 14 then it's not going to happen at all. It would be cool if we kept winning until merge then lol.
This was an almost pointless entry <__<. More tomorrow maybe. Not much to discuss when we keep winning and avoid TC. I'll get info from Sandra about their TC tho. So I'll update with that as and when it comes in.
Looks like Sandra is in trouble :( She is telling me it's either her or Chris going home this round. Which SUCKS. According to her it's Coach, Debbie, Sandra against BobDawg, Chris. Sandra was working on BobDawg to vote with her against Chris. Didn't sound very optimistic :( She said she'll give me her coins on her way out which would put me at 15. I feel bad because I don't really care too much about coins and all. Sandra would have been a GREAT ally to have. She feels super confident that she can win out on Oasis. Joanna felt the same way :X
No challenge tonight so it's gonna be another slow night. Which is fine. I have some work to take care of between today and tomorrow. But this slaughter of my potential allies (Joanna and Sandra) sucks.
YIKES. I am SO SORRY I havent't written a proper confessional in a week. Although TBF, I have been on a winning tribe this whole time. NOTHING HAPPENED LOL. But now we have merged so TIME TO PLAY.
I won't go into past rounds and all. I'll start with the auction. I am torn on how I handled it. I could have yolo-ed it and flaunted my riches in coins. Snagged a lot more mystery items and the chest. BUT, I felt like that would just kill any longevity I could have in this game. Like publicly getting a shit ton of items is bad news bears imo. Like what happened to BobDawg. He got 2 secret items and Candice was already saying "OMG WHAT IF HE HAS 2 IDOLS WE NEED TO BLINDSIDE HIM NOW." So that was my thinking. I don't know if it's going to work or not but I really don't want to appear being in a power position. I made a deal (kinda) with Jenn that we would get the key and the chest. Which we ended up getting. Nick also did good with snatching the idol clue. And Jenn's secret item turned out to be an idol clue too. Here they are.
So in a challenge post on the season 1 board. I tried searching for a bit but I didn't find anything. I think the only thing I haven't looked at is the tribal endurance battle where Woo went the whole night. I looked at the Active Users list and there was a couple Guest accounts on there. I wouldn't be surprised if the idol is already gone. -shrug- Whatever. If I found it I would probably just play it at this TC to get it out of the way.
Jerry got an mystery item too. I haven't asked him what he got. Any and all talks about the game have been PAINFULLY slow and it's driving me crazy. I am gonna dive into the Merge Questions because I need some direction.
Yul @ 19/5/2016 22:47
1. Who is your closest ally? Do you plan to go to the end with them?
I would have to say Nick but Candice is up there. I wouldn't be opposed to going to the end with both of them but I would ideally want to go to the end with Candice and Jenn. I think that would be a cool Final 3 but I don't have any intention to screw over Nick anytime soon (or at all really) If it's an F2 though I would want to go to the end with Candice. Candice is a little OTT at times but she is so adorable. It's like watching a baby deer learning to hunt for the first time. I like her a lot and can't seemyself voting her out.
Yul @ 19/5/2016 22:47
2. Who would you say is the biggest overall threat remaining? Strategic? Social? Physical?
BobDawg is the biggest threat socially. Strategically I would say Tina is a threat. Physically it's tough to say. I am decent at challenges but I am gonna say Aubry since she won her way back into the game. The biggest triple threat remaining is probably Nick.
Yul @ 19/5/2016 22:47
3. Who do you want out next?
I want Ib out. I don't like inactives (says the person who hasn't confessed in a week :X) But some people (BobDawg, Candice, Chris) have pushing for an Aubry vote. I don't think I will vote Aubry even if that's what everyone else will do. I am gonna stick to my guns and vote off Ibrehem.
Yul @ 19/5/2016 22:47
4. What's your strategy from here on out? Will it differ from how you've played so far?
I WANT to stay as UTR as possible. But I don't know if that's going to be possible. I want to be the pretty little forgotten girl in the BG that no one hates and everyone underestimates. Might not mind being a bit goat-y. I don't wanna be stuck in early jury hell UGH.
Yul @ 19/5/2016 22:47
5. Which cast members do you think deserve to make All Stars? Why?
So far only BobDawg and Tina tbh :X There's potential for Nick, Candice, Jenn, Chris.
Yul @ 19/5/2016 22:47
6. If you had to give yourself a title based on your gameplay until this point, what would it be?
The Slut. Still tryna channel my inner Zack so it fits.
Now a bit of talking about this round. So far in this round I have heard talks of an alliance between Chris, Dawg, Debbie, Tina, Shane, Nick and I. This is nowhere NEAR finalized and I smell a ruse. Like the people in this "alliance" don't even properly talk to me. And then Nick said that Jerry told him that he wants to target someone like Jenn and put Nick and I on the bottom. Then there is Candice who first said she wants a group of Candice, Jenn, Nick and I. But then Nick heard from Chris that Candice has been prying Ifbiths for info and she even offered them coins. IDEK what to believe anymore. Everyone I talk to gives me half-assed fucking answers. Dawg, Tina, Chris, Jerry all have said they will "go with the flow" and vote whoever the "majority" decides. The two names being floated out there at the moment are Aubry and Ib. The problem is that THERE IS NO FUCKING FLOW. NOTHING IS HAPPENING. I AM SO FUCKING ANNOYED. I S2G tomorrow I am going to drive myself mad with paranoia that everyone is conspiring against me and that will end up being a self-fulfilling prophecy resulting in my elimination as the merge boot again :(
It has been an annoying afternoon to say the least. IDK what's REALLY going to happen.
Chris, Tina, Dawg are telling me to my face that it's an Ib/Aubry vote.
They are telling Jerry, Candice and Nick that they wanna vote Jenn.
Jenn has the merge idol and she told Nick last night but basically ignored all of my messages.
Shane has the Ifbith idol but is sick and doesn't want to talk to anyone.
Jerry told me about Chris' plan but he replies once ever 2 hours.
Debbie, Aubry, Ib are nowhere to be seen.
Nick and Dawg apparently had a "real talk" where Nick "AGREED" to vote off Jenn because it's smarter. IDK why Dawg would believe that. Chris has the prize viewer which they will use on Jenn and realize Jenn has an idol. Then the vote will switch onto me because I am the only one who doesn't have an idol. I can see Tina, Dawg, Chris, Debbie, Aubry and Ib voting against me. Meanwhile Candice, Nick and I are voting Chris. But Shane seems to be voting Aubry. No idea what Jenn and Jerry will end up doing. So I am probably gonna go home in a 6-5-1 or something. And honestly. I'll be low-key relieved if that happens. No offense to Yul, I think you're a wonderful host. But this is a terrible cast. I don't feel motivated whatsoever to talk to anyone but Nick and Candice. I am glad I was able to FINALLY work w/ Nick in a meaningful way in a game. Dude's a pretty chill guy and an amazing player. And Candice is a special snowflake. So I guess it wasn't a total loss. Everyone else is pretty fucking terrible when it comes to basic online social etiquettes. I am sorry that I am being a downer but I am just so tired. IRL is also hectic these days so maybe it's for the best. If I do somehow stay in the game, I'll go balls to the walls to win immunities from this point forward lol. SIGH. A little over an hour left till results. Gonna be a long ass wait.
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