i am up to something right now... that is probably very unnecessary... will be quite hurtful... and may end up being worse for my game.

sometimes i over think things. all of the time, i over think things. let me say what worries me, for now, and i'll explain the rest later.

what if that stupid mysterious idol gets sent over to jay (what a waste) and used to blindside myself or kim or katie or even aras? i mean, they are unable to hit us any other way.

hell what if jay threw the challenge so that such a plan could be set into action?


dave said something to me to spark it: "i hope you vote the right way this time" with a little winky face. and jay came right out and told me he didn't throw the challenge, and i had never accused him of doing that, i just asked him what happened in it...



it is most likely a long shot. but none-the-less it worries me... so i'm going to go do something i will feel completely ashamed of doing.

and i'm sorry in advance.