what happened in that challenge? my entire tribe wanted to give it to persepa, despite them breaking their alliance with us extremely early. there was no alliance, therefore. one or two people talked to one or two people from persepa and decided they should win so that we could all be equal with no inactives left?

i'm sorry, i love your game, i hate inactives, but what i hate more is intentionally giving up a tribal immunity challenge. that goes against everything i believe in. but i did it, with a little bit of hesitation. i tried for a few minutes to get them to see that even if kelly survives it's better that we try to win, no matter what!!! it wasn't taking, so i left, faked a computer/internet issue, and went to cool down. before i got too pissy at my own tribe.

i am good at doing that, not so good at not doing that. but i proved myself wrong last night.

anyway, i am sick of doing everything my tribe says. like for instance, it was dave's idea to work with persepa, and even when they were killing him, he still wanted it. and after it was dave's idea, it was david's, and then jenn came on and was happy to go after persepa untill five minutes had passed. just enough time for them to converse. then jenn was all about explaining to me the reasoning why we had to let persepa win.

"the blonde tourage"... taking a tour to hell.

oh!

and then... i ended up staying the latest last night of my tribe (other than hope who just comes and goes as randomly as a whim... should have made a sentence like "comes and goes as fleetingly as a random HOPE or desire...), and getting up again to take out another aput member, despite what i thought was best. or, well, i can understand the strategy behind it, but still, i am of the school of thought that there is never a good time to throw a tribal challenge.

but jenn and dave and david are all together leading me down a path to my death. leading myself and hope, possibly. i am still not sure what to make of hope, to be honest... not sure if she is part of a big alliance, not sure if she is social, not sure what kind of allies she has. i have no idea. i am actually starting to really like hope, because of the mystery. lmao. but i am fairly certain that dave has something to do with jenn making an alliance with us, and that thought will always bother me. and we are at their disposal because of ryan. if ryan was better then we could have gotten aras on our side, but i am fairly certain dave, david, and jenn have aras on their side out of fear if not out of friendship... so no matter, what, the next two votes will either be kelly (now) and then ryan. and so who am i to not do what dave wants in the challenge?

i hate it. i hate my tribe which i am falling in fake love with. but i can do nothing about it. why, hope, did you suggest this?



reminds me of a song... of a lyric from a song...




"you can dance, you can sing, like a puppet on a string, but you ain't in control of a single thing."

this convo goes somewhere, meanders, and then ends up... well, you be the judge.


sierra 6:30 pm
hi sarah

Sarah Jones 6:30 pm
Hey Sierra! How are you?

sierra 6:30 pm
not bad
bored :-P
u?

Sarah Jones 6:31 pm
I'm super bored too. I can't help it. :-P

sierra 6:31 pm
lol

sierra 6:32 pm
well boredom drove us together for a chat i guess :-P

Sarah Jones 6:32 pm
For sure<3 How are you?
o
i asked that already
oops

sierra 6:32 pm
LMAO
that was funny :-P

Sarah Jones 6:33 pm
soz!

sierra 6:33 pm
no worries :-)
sorry we teamed up on your tribe last night, btw

Sarah Jones 6:33 pm
It's cool.
You still lost anyway so no harm done :-P

sierra 6:33 pm
i actually tried to get ppl to stop and go after persepa
but my tribe is like... weird
true :-P

Sarah Jones 6:34 pm
How do you like everyone?

sierra 6:34 pm
but like we were both clearly gooing to lose to them

sierra 6:34 pm
so i dont know why we kept helping them when they were attacking us :-\

Sarah Jones 6:34 pm
(ps you should take out jenn)

sierra 6:34 pm
i cant :-(
do anything
as you saw in the challenge :-P

Sarah Jones 6:34 pm
who are you guys voting

sierra 6:34 pm
kelly
she's inactive :-(

Sarah Jones 6:35 pm
so boring. :-( those three from old qinoq are the worst.

sierra 6:35 pm
and i have no one to help me do anything if i wanted to anyway :-(

Sarah Jones 6:35 pm
I fucking hate them.

sierra 6:35 pm
hey i am old qinoq :-P
lmao but i agree

Sarah Jones 6:35 pm
original qinoq. :-P

sierra 6:35 pm
i am original qinoq
oh wait no i'm not

Sarah Jones 6:35 pm
LOL no you aren't

sierra 6:35 pm
shit see i dont even know what tribe i am from :-P

Sarah Jones 6:35 pm
I mean Murphy/Cruser/Jenn

sierra 6:36 pm
SOZ :-P
oh they were all together on a tribe!?!

Sarah Jones 6:36 pm
Yes.

sierra 6:36 pm
well there's the first lie i've been told by them then
wtf

Sarah Jones 6:36 pm
What?

sierra 6:36 pm
i thought jenn was all alone?

Sarah Jones 6:36 pm
???
No.
Never.

sierra 6:36 pm
omg
well i suck at this game clearly :-P

Sarah Jones 6:36 pm
Those three were on the same tribe with me and they are an alliance

sierra 6:37 pm
i never really payed attention to the original tribes :-(
omfg
k well good to know
so i will get taken out if i work with any of them, basically?

Sarah Jones 6:37 pm
well i just think it'd be smarter to break them up.

sierra 6:38 pm
okie
i can try

sierra 6:38 pm
probly not this round
unless i wanna get myself killed
but next round :-)
there's gonna be another swap coming up, is what i am thinking
and i wanna have somewhere to go after this tribe :-P
clearly they are all in love with persepa ppl
and i dont know anyone thereexcept for inactive angie and anthony :-\

Sarah Jones 6:41 pm
I think the pregame is mainly on peserpa honestly.

sierra 6:41 pm
is there for sure a pregame?
cause i hate that shit
i never enter with anybody, and i've won lots that way
so they have no excuse for being cheaters :-P

Sarah Jones 6:44 pm
I'm pretty sure.

sierra 6:46 pm
damn

sierra 6:46 pm
i am so sick of losing to jess
you know i have NEVER ever voted her out
never written her name down once
and i have been screwed like 50 times
:-P

Sarah Jones 6:47 pm
I accidentally convinced her to quit once.

sierra 6:47 pm
omfg
*bows* to your feet!
i'm unworthy! lmao!

sierra 6:49 pm
you know...
i heard ur a bit of a jerk
but i dont see it :-\

Sarah Jones 6:49 pm
From who?
Jenn?

sierra 6:50 pm
i actually dont remember, it was during the fiasco tribe chat last night
i think it was before jenn came on
so i dont think it was jenn, no
oh yeah you were grouped in with katie :-P
that's what it was :-P
lmao!

Sarah Jones 6:51 pm
What
Oh
It wasn't like that, really.

Sarah Jones 6:52 pm
I couldn't stand them so naturally I fell in with the people who weren't them.

sierra 6:54 pm
well that makes sense
i personally have no idea what the bad blood is
and i could care less

Sarah Jones 6:54 pm
Let me know if you remember who it was.

sierra 6:55 pm
i just want to be on the winning side and i feel like your tribe is better than PG and her minions :-P
i think it was a dave
or david
one of them

Sarah Jones 6:55 pm
probably cruser.

sierra 6:55 pm
but i am a pot smoker
my memory is ... terrible

sierra 6:57 pm
is there something i should know abt cruser by the way?
he talks to me like i am like... jesus
just saying :-P
so it kinda weirds me out
and then i nthe challenge everyone attacked him

Sarah Jones 6:57 pm
He has a god complex and thinks he's super fantastic and the leader.

sierra 6:58 pm
ahhh
well then ...
what's with him sucking up to me?
and saying he loves me

Sarah Jones 6:58 pm
Murphy's annoying.

sierra 6:58 pm
and i am the besT?
and all this?

Sarah Jones 6:58 pm
Jenn's... stupid.
He's worried about his game.

sierra 6:58 pm
lol
well
that is not a good way to play
i had only talked to him once
before he started laying on the "i love you" shit
like i am retarded :-P

sierra 6:59 pm
i will go after jenn if u think that's best
but why not go after dave?

Sarah Jones 7:00 pm
oh idgaf
i just want them all gone

sierra 7:00 pm
lol
well then we're on the same page so far :-P
well...
i have a much better chance of getting people to vote dave
than i do of jenn
dave is see through
jenn plays a fairly good game :-\

Sarah Jones 7:01 pm
I hate Jenn's character choice.

sierra 7:01 pm
why?
cause jenn died?

Sarah Jones 7:01 pm
yes

sierra 7:01 pm
let me be honest
she said everyone would say that
and that makes me paranoid :-P
lmao!
i can see ur point tho
to me, it's like a ... an homage
to an awesome person who passed way too soon :-(
but i dont know jenn like you do
so maybe i am missing something :-\

*sees the name Jess*

*waits*

Do you think Jess is in the game?

honestly, no, i do not. and if she is, she got me again :p

i do believe that sarah believes there is a strong chance jess is in the game. but i believe in her as much as i believe in other people believing in god. all the power to you but i'd rather put my faith in kim.

or, i mean, girls who are as cute as kim?

one ting i WILL say about this topic... i think if jess is in the game, and if bella is in the game, i hope they have fun and enjoy their time. and do as well as they can. and we'll see if i can beat them or if i can find out who they are lol. basically i could care less... but i do enjoy pretending like it makes me super paranoid.

i have grown to TRY to care less about jessica and her friends. and if she is in here then i will at some point get really scared, but no need to start that now.

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