I think now is just a bad time for hosting. There seems to be a rut in all my online stomping grounds and a lot of people are suddenly very busy. I guess September with the new school year causes problems for people. Everything is all new and fresh for a while but they'll get bored pretty soon and come crawling back.

YOU JUST WATCH.

Reality is overrated.

I've become a bit of a hermit online and offline. The friendships I respect the most are the ones who don't particularly object to this. I'd genuinely be there for somebody if they really needed it but I have no time for people who just want to add me to their social statistics counter.

I really can't get into small talk, online or off. It's such an awkward thing. Most people breeze through it and despite efforts to pretend I'm interested, my lack of interest must be blatant. Kind of awkward in social situations, especially when I get stuck next to somebody I really don't know and they don't have anything to say either.

It extends beyond social situations to mundane affairs like haircuts as well. I find that whole thing so awkward because I feel like I'm expected to make small talk with the barber and I'd honestly be happy just to sit in silence. Probably boring for the person doing the job but a lot of people don't get to make conversation whilst working.

It's not rudeness and people probably think it is. It's just that I can't feign interest in topics like "the weather".