I fell in love with a girl in middle school, who liked me too, but decided to get into drugs and bad guys while always saying I was too good for her. I longed for her for my entire high school career, finally dated her in my Junior year I think, and she turned out to be a mess, who knew. We broke up and she got married to some army guy a year later and had a baby. She moved to North Dakota and got divorced, and currently is in a relationship with someone new every few weeks. I think I dodged a bullet but the whole experience probably had an effect on me.

It caused me to be inattentive to my first real girlfriend, with me not really being very attracted to her. She felt like I ignored her and we were better off as friends because I never really did anything romantic for her until the very end when I bought her stuff for valentine's day. She told me we should break up in the lobby at school while I had chocolate and a bear in my hand and I proceeded to go to class and eat all of the chocolate with my buddies. I was a dick to her the rest of the school year because although I wasn't initially interested in her romantically (she asked me out) it stings being broken up with in that fashion and I also suddenly felt a bit attracted to her when we weren't dating anymore.

The next girl I dated turned out to be a lesbian.

I then had several dramatic encounters with various women who always seemed to be using me for some purpose. Pretty much the same scenario over and over. Never dated any of them though. My only official girlfriends were the lack of attraction one, the lesbian, and my dream girl from middle school who I ended up hating. One girl in particular now that I recall turned me down after I expressed feelings for her then threw a fit when she finally decided she wanted me but I wasn't about to be her second choice. So in some regards I'm not as pathetic as some of you guys would think. I'm very stubborn and would reject my dream girl in a heartbeat if she had rejected me in the past. Except for the most recent girl who I still have feelings for despite hearing that she's crazy and not worth it from a million people. I won't mention her anymore because I've told you already about her.

I tend to avoid women for the most part. Women I'm attracted to at least. I don't like the idea of getting too attached to someone, I worry about making a fool of myself, that she might not like me, etc.

I don't talk about women with people in the real world. My dad asked me if I was gay once because I tune out when he talks about women and I have no interest in going to a strip joint with him ever. One of my coworkers routinely asks me about women, as well as who at work I'm attracted to (mostly so he can tell me about who he's interested in) and I manage to shrug it all off and answer his questions without really answering them and he is frustrated at times but how respectful and stand up I am compared to him lol. What I'm saying is I'm a pretty private person when it comes to my romantic life and only speak about it to people on the internet. No one even knows about the girl who tore me apart recently that I talked about on here. No one. Only you guys. No one even knows I'm trying to meet someone to date. People think I'm not interested in dating.

The most positive experience with a girl I had was with a woman two summers ago who I lost my virginity to. We met that evening, had sex all night long, did pretty much everything imaginable with what time we had (I was on a 24 hour layover at an airport when she offered to make me dinner) and I left for home. She made me mix tapes of songs she liked and wrote me a handwritten letter about what an amazing night we had and what a great person I am. We talked regularly for a while and are still friends but she has her own life that's pretty extravagant and lives in Seattle while I'm in Columbus with my pretty lame life I don't think she'd think much of so I have let that ship sail.

That's one of my problems too. I think I shouldn't pursue a girl until I have a nice apartment, a nice car, and a job making a lot of money so she's not embarrassed to have me in her life. I think girls (and guys) deserve to be with someone who has their life in order and mine is a mess.

I don't know where I want my life to go either. For all I know I will get everything I want from life, a girlfriend and a steady career, and find myself wishing I was back here hanging out with my family or even online trolling people on some occasions and bullshitting with internet friends on others.

I think I need all of these things to be happy, but maybe all I really need is about treefiddy. But then I think “Nah, forget it. Yo home to Bel-Air!” I pulled up to the house about 7 or 8 And I yelled to the cabby yo holmes smell ya later Looked at my kingdom I was finally there To sit on my throne as the prince of Bel-Air.

Tim @ 22/1/2015 0:54

I fell in love with a girl in middle school, who liked me too, but decided to get into drugs and bad guys while always saying I was too good for her. I longed for her for my entire high school career, finally dated her in my Junior year I think, and she turned out to be a mess, who knew. We broke up and she got married to some army guy a year later and had a baby. She moved to North Dakota and got divorced, and currently is in a relationship with someone new every few weeks. I think I dodged a bullet but the whole experience probably had an effect on me. It caused me to be inattentive to my first real girlfriend, with me not really being very attracted to her. She felt like I ignored her and we were better off as friends because I never really did anything romantic for her until the very end when I bought her stuff for valentine's day. She told me we should break up in the lobby at school while I had chocolate and a bear in my hand and I proceeded to go to class and eat all of the chocolate with my buddies. I was a dick to her the rest of the school year because although I wasn't initially interested in her romantically (she asked me out) it stings being broken up with in that fashion and I also suddenly felt a bit attracted to her when we weren't dating anymore. The next girl I dated turned out to be a lesbian. I then had several dramatic encounters with various women who always seemed to be using me for some purpose. Pretty much the same scenario over and over. Never dated any of them though. My only official girlfriends were the lack of attraction one, the lesbian, and my dream girl from middle school who I ended up hating. One girl in particular now that I recall turned me down after I expressed feelings for her then threw a fit when she finally decided she wanted me but I wasn't about to be her second choice. So in some regards I'm not as pathetic as some of you guys would think. I'm very stubborn and would reject my dream girl in a heartbeat if she had rejected me in the past. Except for the most recent girl who I still have feelings for despite hearing that she's crazy and not worth it from a million people. I won't mention her anymore because I've told you already about her. I tend to avoid women for the most part. Women I'm attracted to at least. I don't like the idea of getting too attached to someone, I worry about making a fool of myself, that she might not like me, etc. I don't talk about women with people in the real world. My dad asked me if I was gay once because I tune out when he talks about women and I have no interest in going to a strip joint with him ever. One of my coworkers routinely asks me about women, as well as who at work I'm attracted to (mostly so he can tell me about who he's interested in) and I manage to shrug it all off and answer his questions without really answering them and he is frustrated at times but how respectful and stand up I am compared to him lol. What I'm saying is I'm a pretty private person when it comes to my romantic life and only speak about it to people on the internet. No one even knows about the girl who tore me apart recently that I talked about on here. No one. Only you guys. No one even knows I'm trying to meet someone to date. People think I'm not interested in dating. The most positive experience with a girl I had was with a woman two summers ago who I lost my virginity to. We met that evening, had sex all night long, did pretty much everything imaginable with what time we had (I was on a 24 hour layover at an airport when she offered to make me dinner) and I left for home. She made me mix tapes of songs she liked and wrote me a handwritten letter about what an amazing night we had and what a great person I am. We talked regularly for a while and are still friends but she has her own life that's pretty extravagant and lives in Seattle while I'm in Columbus with my pretty lame life I don't think she'd think much of so I have let that ship sail. That's one of my problems too. I think I shouldn't pursue a girl until I have a nice apartment, a nice car, and a job making a lot of money so she's not embarrassed to have me in her life. I think girls (and guys) deserve to be with someone who has their life in order and mine is a mess. I don't know where I want my life to go either. For all I know I will get everything I want from life, a girlfriend and a steady career, and find myself wishing I was back here hanging out with my family or even online trolling people on some occasions and bullshitting with internet friends on others. I think I need all of these things to be happy, but maybe all I really need is about treefiddy. But then I think “Nah, forget it. Yo home to Bel-Air!” I pulled up to the house about 7 or 8 And I yelled to the cabby yo holmes smell ya later Looked at my kingdom I was finally there To sit on my throne as the prince of Bel-Air.

This is the worst bel air i've ever seen, fuckin' summer fag.

Dude if you're gonna spend 30 minutes posting, you have time to make a tl;dr, jeez

Mercator @ 22/1/2015 0:09

Dude if you're gonna spend 30 minutes posting, you have time to make a tl;dr, jeez

I just read it back to myself in a few minutes tops.

Finally read it.

I feel honored to be a part of the group of dickheads you spill your guts out though.

Mercator @ 22/1/2015 1:22

Finally read it.

I'm impressed.

Gonna make some cookies

Cuhraig @ 21/1/2015 22:58

Gonna make some cookies

Fuck I thought this was the boolshit thread.

this is why craig is my favorite

I dislike what has come of my thread. What once was a place to talk about girls has become a hodgepodge of men acting like girls.

Shut the up

Vernon just wants some cookies.

FUCK!

Cuhraig @ 22/1/2015 7:58

Cuhraig @ 21/1/2015 22:58 Gonna make some cookies Fuck I thought this was the boolshit thread.

It's alright, just pretend you're making girl scout cookies.

Anyway, read the essay long post. Didn't find it that bad. Thinking about life and romance is obviously something I do as well, but what you shouldn't do is dwell on your problems. Just stop think about it if it becomes unbearable. I assume you start thinking about things like this when you get bored? Thankfully there's tons of entertainment out there to distract us with.

Good luck with the girl, hopefully she's the right kind of crazy and not the wrong kind of crazy.

The latter part of my post was not directed at Craig lol.