Hi everyone!

This has been such a long, wild game and I'm thankful to every single person for making the merge into a complete and total perfect disaster. Much like this game, my own gameplay has been super wild and I'm looking forward to answering all your questions. Because I know there's a huge question mark behind a lot of the things I've done here. You guys know how much I like to be silly, and I am going to be FESTIVE and FUN for questions but for my opening statement I think its best if I'm pretty straightforward and explain all this.

I want to make something clear from the beginning in this statement:
I Am My Own Person.

I played up my whimsical side and pretended to be easily influenced so I wouldn't catch heat for making moves. This however came at the cost of my game being perceived as irresponsible, and I'm here to show in this FTC that every single thing I did was completely thought out in detail. My strategy worked, as I was able to create a working relationship with nearly every single member of the jury without once ever becoming a serious target. This is highlighted the most in the first vote of the merge, where I voted out Troy. I had a pretty strong bond with troy, and we agreed on flipping to Otra, which we did the round Bianca left. I threw the blame of the Bianca vote on troy to keep suspicion from me and to keep my options open. This worked, because Troy no longer had a working relationship with anyone from Hecc and I had deals coming at me from nearly every person in the game once the merge hit. My intention in the beginning was to flip to otra until I assessed the situation.

Santiago, Ausenia, and Maxwell were all otra
Troy and Dean had flipped to otra
Lauren and Hailey were fine flipping on Hecc at any time
Miami had spoken to me about eventually making a move on Hecc when the time was right
Wendy was the only person who seemed to be Hecc Strong


I realized on paper it seemed like there was an overwhelming Hecc majority, but in reality there was only one person who was willing to go with Hecc all the way. That is when I realized I had to stay with hecc to create an even divide, and eliminate the Heccs I found to be the most dangerous as the time came. Many people assumed the core of Hecc was clearly Miami and Wendy, but I had a great relationship with Lauren and Hailey and I knew they would side with me when it came time to take Miami and Wendy out.

My reasoning for taking out Troy in particular was that I wanted to remove anyone that could possibly be able to play the middle as I could. Dean and troy were the other two Heccs that intended on voting with otra, so with Dean being immune my attention turned to Troy. When wendy proposed taking out troy I just thought, "whoa, perfect" because it meant I could parlay the blame of the vote going on Wendy and up her threat status, which worked as she was the one to attain votes at the very next TC.

After that vote, I began growing closer to Wendy and we legitimately did repair our relationship that had been rocky in the past. I wish I could say my next action was a master plan, but it was a complete oversight by me. I looked at the voting chart we made for the split several times before submitting my vote and still misread it. I voted for Ausenia when I should have voted for maxwell, causing the idol play to fall on wendy. I knew everyone would assume I had done this purposefully due to my past with wendy, so I had a total breakdown to Miami to ensure she knew I hadn't purposefully ruined her game, but in reality I was fine. Lauren and I made up a plan like two minutes after results were revealed for Lauren to take credit for my vote, and get information from the other side.

This of course, ended up in Lauren actually voting Santiago instead of the agreed upon target Max. At this point I felt Santiago was my best bet for FTC and with him being isolated from the rest of otra, I immediately grew closer to him and put my foot down on the vote and went to rocks, as I was not letting him leave. Ausenia was rocked out right after we had finally hashed things out so it was very disappointing to see her go as I had planned to work with her literally the next round. Instead I was able to form a strong bond with Santiago that would be very beneficial in the future.

The F7 vote is the only time I was voted for in this game, and the reason I received the vote was just a side effect of my plan. I conspired with Hailey to make Miami play her idol. The plan was for Hailey to slip something to Miami about me being untrustworthy so Miami would get nervous that she'd use her idol. This paranoia also caused Miami to tell Maxwell she was voting with him to make a move on me, and that I was voting for him. So Maxwell voted for me. The plan almost worked until Hailey herself had accidentally ruined the plan by telling Miami Lauren was in fact voting for Hailey at the last minute, causing miami to forego her idol play seconds before the deadline.

The next round I knew I had to take a different approach to getting Miami's idol out, so Hailey and I decided I'd tell something to Santiago about making a move on Miami and that would cause him to run to Miami and make her paranoid, because I made Hailey believe Santiago was closest to Miami and he'd tell her anything. In reality, I just straightforwardly asked Santiago to make Miami paranoid enough to play her idol at F6, which worked. This also made Hailey fully believe in the Miami-Santiago F2 because the information I told Santiago "somehow" made its way to Miami. I was also in a difficult position at F6 as one of my allies, Lauren was in danger of being voted out. I had to chance to ruin the split vote once again and keep Lauren, but then I realized it would likely be seen as me enabling her. So I told both her and Dean the votes would likely be split between the two of them, to give incentive for both to vote for each other and for Lauren to play her idol so there would be no idols in the F5. Dean did not vote for Lauren, and Lauren kept her idol.

Lauren was very upset with me after this vote because I intended to put her in a pretty bad spot, but I was able to keep her trust by telling her I had pre-warned her about everything happening, which solidified her with me. I think the F5 round shows the strength of my game the most. I had the strongest bond with every single person in the F5 other than Miami, and I had managed to remove the idol from Miami so she would not be immune that round through making the people closest to her manipulate her. I did not receive a single vote in that F5 even though it seemed as though Miami and I were the only options to vote that round.

At F4, Lauren had won the challenge with a perfect score. That's when I realized my ideal F3 of Lauren, myself, and Santiago was not going to work out because Lauren would likely stomp us both in the final challenge and could just decide to take Santiago because he was seen as an easy win (although tbh santiago did a lot that he went unaccredited for...), so I voted off Santiago along with Lauren and Hailey knowing I was now guaranteed final two no matter who won the final immunity.



Now that I have clarified some of my gameplay, I think this is going to be a huge hurdle for me in this FTC, as I had been considered inactive. I confided in Wendy about this, but I have crippling social anxiety. When I am out and about, I eke out the part of my personality that is the happiest, most exciting and sociable. I keep on this mask to get me through the day and by the time I log into slack, I am exhausted. My mind tells me nothing I say will be funny enough, convincing enough, or genuine enough to do well in the game. So I take a LONG time to respond to messages because I have to work up the courage to have a conversation every single time I talk. I usually blew it off as "being busy" or "I'm just not around" because its kind of personal and hard for me to talk about. Now that I've said it in public its kind of freeing? But I was ALWAYS thinking about the game. In all of the activity based challenges, I was the one who pulled off the win. In the first challenge of the game I hovered over the board for hours and hours making sure my tribe would win. I went for 19 hours straight in the final six endurance challenge to secure my alliance's safety and make sure we had the most options possible in that round.

I was constantly thinking of new strategies, how to connect with people better, and when I was around I managed to truly make an impact on this game every single time I could. And my voice was the one most present for most of the rounds. I kept the best relationships I could in such a short amount of time and I can honestly say that most of the people in the merge thought they had me right under their thumb as a close ally at one point in time. I managed to forge these relationships out of pure will.



Normally I would wait for this to come up in a jury question, but I want to set the tone immediately for this FTC to be just as exciting as the game. I invite Hailey to respond to this and show where she bested me in this game as well. I think in the beginning of the game, Hailey had been consistently active, but around F7 I don't know whether she picked up 50 new shifts at work or if she got comfortable in the game, but she was just not around. I struggled to make plans with her because I usually had to stay up until 11pm when she'd come on. Because of her inactivity, her perception of the game was warped by basically whatever I told her. Miami was the perfect ally for Hailey, she had the golden combination of being a threat while also not being the best at challenges, which meant it was to Hailey's benefit for Miami to stick around as long as possible. At one point, Miami even said to me she never even considered the possibility of Hailey turning on her.

However, Hailey quite literally fucked over Miami for no reason other than me telling her to. I made up a connection between Santiago and Miami knowing Santiago would always side with me and Miami was loyal to Hailey, and Hailey manipulated Miami into playing her idol, then cast her off at F5 when it was clearly beneficial for her to keep Miami as long as possible.

Another hole in her game is she was the only person who knew for sure Dean was voting for Santiago, and instead of asking him to change his vote or changing her vote from Dean to Santiago to change the vote from 3-2-1 to 2-2-2, she just let the vote happen. This meant she was one of the biggest reasons Lauren kept her idol, and had anyone other than her won the immunity at F5, she was gone, because Santiago and I had already planned in advance we'd be taking out Hailey over Miami when the time came.

She then completely ignored any possibility of me teaming up with Santiago or Lauren despite the fact that there were transparent whispers about me being tight with both of them. At F4 I only changed my mind about eliminating her because Lauren had won the challenge by such an overwhelming margin. Then at F3 Lauren began the challenge when Fetty was not around to answer questions, and it was quite possibly the only challenge that Lauren could have not easily won in this game. After she voted out Lauren, and Lauren can attest to this, she was completely flabbergasted when Lauren and I revealed we were a pair. Hailey had no idea what was going on around her and mostly arrived here through luck and happenstance.

I think Hailey just didn't care about this game as much as any of us did. I don't think these kind of holes exist in my game. I don't think there was any point where someone could say "If I would've just done ____, bobby would be GONE!" And if there are, I really want to hear them because I always am looking to become a better player. My goal was to play a game that would allow me to get to F2 no matter what happened, and I could have been sitting her next to anyone. It was my voice, especially in the later rounds that dictated the Finalists here today.

I will properly respond to your accusations a bit later, but I will say that it was not my mind that was warped by you. Everything you need to know to give a solid counter-argument is in my speech. I didn't throw away Miami, she was the only person in this game I was 100% loyal to. The Final 6 vote? Yes that was my mistake. But those "plans" we came up with, Miami knew every detail to and we planned accordingly.

I didn't put all of my eggs in your basket. You had like, one tbh.

Hailey @ 10/11/2018 21:53

I will properly respond to your accusations a bit later, but I will say that it was not my mind that was warped by you. Everything you need to know to give a solid counter-argument is in my speech. I didn't throw away Miami, she was the only person in this game I was 100% loyal to. The Final 6 vote? Yes that was my mistake. But those "plans" we came up with, Miami knew every detail to and we planned accordingly. I didn't put all of my eggs in your basket. You had like, one tbh.

you completely got me with the idol thing. I had no idea you were speaking with her while it was happening. I guess it was a good job? But either way, the end result was the same. Miami's idol was out before F6, and you were good to go at any of the next three rounds. I look forward to the rest of your response.

Bobby @ 10/11/2018 21:07

Hailey @ 10/11/2018 21:53 I will properly respond to your accusations a bit later, but I will say that it was not my mind that was warped by you. Everything you need to know to give a solid counter-argument is in my speech. I didn't throw away Miami, she was the only person in this game I was 100% loyal to. The Final 6 vote? Yes that was my mistake. But those "plans" we came up with, Miami knew every detail to and we planned accordingly. I didn't put all of my eggs in your basket. You had like, one tbh. you completely got me with the idol thing. I had no idea you were speaking with her while it was happening. I guess it was a good job? But either way, the end result was the same. Miami's idol was out before F6, and you were good to go at any of the next three rounds. I look forward to the rest of your response.

And I knew that. Why do you think I tried my absolute best at all of the immunities from then on out? Final 5 I knew it was me or Miami, so I HAD to win. Final 4? I didn't win but I was the second best. So if Lauren didn't win, I would have. So your point is invalid for the Final 4. And Final 3? It's not my fault that your computer was having problems and Lauren couldn't grasp the challenge rules.

Sorry to sound aggressive but I don't think these "what if" scenarios should count against me.

Point blank. Period.

Hailey @ 10/11/2018 22:15

Bobby @ 10/11/2018 21:07 Hailey @ 10/11/2018 21:53 I will properly respond to your accusations a bit later, but I will say that it was not my mind that was warped by you. Everything you need to know to give a solid counter-argument is in my speech. I didn't throw away Miami, she was the only person in this game I was 100% loyal to. The Final 6 vote? Yes that was my mistake. But those "plans" we came up with, Miami knew every detail to and we planned accordingly. I didn't put all of my eggs in your basket. You had like, one tbh. you completely got me with the idol thing. I had no idea you were speaking with her while it was happening. I guess it was a good job? But either way, the end result was the same. Miami's idol was out before F6, and you were good to go at any of the next three rounds. I look forward to the rest of your response. And I knew that. Why do you think I tried my absolute best at all of the immunities from then on out? Final 5 I knew it was me or Miami, so I HAD to win. Final 4? I didn't win but I was the second best. So if Lauren didn't win, I would have. So your point is invalid for the Final 4. And Final 3? It's not my fault that your computer was having problems and Lauren couldn't grasp the challenge rules. Sorry to sound aggressive but I don't think these "what if" scenarios should count against me. Point blank. Period.

so essentially your gameplan was immunity or die? for the final three rounds? there was nothing better you could have thought of? I feel like that's part of what I said about you just... not caring? Like this game didn't really mean anything to you. You were ready to go at any of those three rounds, knowing Lauren was dominating all the challenges before this?

I'm not saying they count against you, it just feels lazy to me. Its a solid fact that especially in the final two rounds, your survival was pure happenstance. If Lauren didn't blow us all out the water in that F4 challenge I was voting you out. If Fetty had been around to explain things when she was going, or if my computer had gotten shipped back to me in time to complete it, you were very much gone. On top of this, you had a "Feeling" Lauren and I were a pair but showed no issue with allowing us into F4 and F3? When she was liable to win her way to the end and take me?

Bobby @ 10/11/2018 21:22

Hailey @ 10/11/2018 22:15 Bobby @ 10/11/2018 21:07 Hailey @ 10/11/2018 21:53 I will properly respond to your accusations a bit later, but I will say that it was not my mind that was warped by you. Everything you need to know to give a solid counter-argument is in my speech. I didn't throw away Miami, she was the only person in this game I was 100% loyal to. The Final 6 vote? Yes that was my mistake. But those "plans" we came up with, Miami knew every detail to and we planned accordingly. I didn't put all of my eggs in your basket. You had like, one tbh. you completely got me with the idol thing. I had no idea you were speaking with her while it was happening. I guess it was a good job? But either way, the end result was the same. Miami's idol was out before F6, and you were good to go at any of the next three rounds. I look forward to the rest of your response. And I knew that. Why do you think I tried my absolute best at all of the immunities from then on out? Final 5 I knew it was me or Miami, so I HAD to win. Final 4? I didn't win but I was the second best. So if Lauren didn't win, I would have. So your point is invalid for the Final 4. And Final 3? It's not my fault that your computer was having problems and Lauren couldn't grasp the challenge rules. Sorry to sound aggressive but I don't think these "what if" scenarios should count against me. Point blank. Period. so essentially your gameplan was immunity or die? for the final three rounds? there was nothing better you could have thought of? I feel like that's part of what I said about you just... not caring? Like this game didn't really mean anything to you. You were ready to go at any of those three rounds, knowing Lauren was dominating all the challenges before this? I'm not saying they count against you, it just feels lazy to me. Its a solid fact that especially in the final two rounds, your survival was pure happenstance. If Lauren didn't blow us all out the water in that F4 challenge I was voting you out. If Fetty had been around to explain things when she was going, or if my computer had gotten shipped back to me in time to complete it, you were very much gone. On top of this, you had a "Feeling" Lauren and I were a pair but showed no issue with allowing us into F4 and F3? When she was liable to win her way to the end and take me?

Final 5 I knew it was me or Miami. If her or myself didn't win immunity, I would have appealed by making myself look better to keep than her.

Final 4 if I knew you/Lauren were voting me, I would have appealed to Santi. But you both said you were keeping me and I didn't see why you guys would lie at that point with no idols.

Final 3 was the only round I truly felt like it was win immunity or die.

After Final 6's fumble, yeah, my goal was to stay safe and make it to the end.

Honestly you saying I didn't care about the game kind of pisses me off because I put A LOT into the game. You would often disappear for hours on end so I think it's pretty hypocritical of you to insinuate I didn't care. I was CONSTANTLY strategizing and trying to put myself in the best positions, DESPITE my busy schedule. There were a couple of times I was legitimately late for my real life duties because I was trying to figure shit out with tribal and voting.

And honestly, those rules for the final challenge were simple, I'm sorry.

Hailey @ 10/11/2018 22:41

Bobby @ 10/11/2018 21:22 Hailey @ 10/11/2018 22:15 Bobby @ 10/11/2018 21:07 Hailey @ 10/11/2018 21:53 I will properly respond to your accusations a bit later, but I will say that it was not my mind that was warped by you. Everything you need to know to give a solid counter-argument is in my speech. I didn't throw away Miami, she was the only person in this game I was 100% loyal to. The Final 6 vote? Yes that was my mistake. But those "plans" we came up with, Miami knew every detail to and we planned accordingly. I didn't put all of my eggs in your basket. You had like, one tbh. you completely got me with the idol thing. I had no idea you were speaking with her while it was happening. I guess it was a good job? But either way, the end result was the same. Miami's idol was out before F6, and you were good to go at any of the next three rounds. I look forward to the rest of your response. And I knew that. Why do you think I tried my absolute best at all of the immunities from then on out? Final 5 I knew it was me or Miami, so I HAD to win. Final 4? I didn't win but I was the second best. So if Lauren didn't win, I would have. So your point is invalid for the Final 4. And Final 3? It's not my fault that your computer was having problems and Lauren couldn't grasp the challenge rules. Sorry to sound aggressive but I don't think these "what if" scenarios should count against me. Point blank. Period. so essentially your gameplan was immunity or die? for the final three rounds? there was nothing better you could have thought of? I feel like that's part of what I said about you just... not caring? Like this game didn't really mean anything to you. You were ready to go at any of those three rounds, knowing Lauren was dominating all the challenges before this? I'm not saying they count against you, it just feels lazy to me. Its a solid fact that especially in the final two rounds, your survival was pure happenstance. If Lauren didn't blow us all out the water in that F4 challenge I was voting you out. If Fetty had been around to explain things when she was going, or if my computer had gotten shipped back to me in time to complete it, you were very much gone. On top of this, you had a "Feeling" Lauren and I were a pair but showed no issue with allowing us into F4 and F3? When she was liable to win her way to the end and take me? Final 5 I knew it was me or Miami. If her or myself didn't win immunity, I would have appealed by making myself look better to keep than her. Final 4 if I knew you/Lauren were voting me, I would have appealed to Santi. But you both said you were keeping me and I didn't see why you guys would lie at that point with no idols. Final 3 was the only round I truly felt like it was win immunity or die. After Final 6's fumble, yeah, my goal was to stay safe and make it to the end. Honestly you saying I didn't care about the game kind of pisses me off because I put A LOT into the game. You would often disappear for hours on end so I think it's pretty hypocritical of you to insinuate I didn't care. I was CONSTANTLY strategizing and trying to put myself in the best positions, DESPITE my busy schedule. There were a couple of times I was legitimately late for my real life duties because I was trying to figure shit out with tribal and voting. And honestly, those rules for the final challenge were simple, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, I really don't mean to demean you and you know I love you. But...



Its not adding up!

At final five or final four, it didn't matter what you said because as I said before, you were gone if the immunity results had changed even a fraction, and you did not plan for that. What I'm trying to say is-- can the same be said for me? The only immunity I won in this game was the F6 immunity, and I probably needed it the least out of everyone. I won that so we'd have options. I had a pretty good handle of where the game was going the entire merge, barring F8 when Lauren took that vote by storm.

The bottom line is, in the scenario you chose to go through with in your game, your fate was you going home at any point from 5th to 3rd. It is only through the most unlikely chain of events that you are here right now. You did not plan for this. And I did not have those odds. It didn't matter who won immunity, I was going to be fine, and you yourself were a big reason for that because you often voted against your best interests and honestly, it feels like you didn't think things through. The reason I'm saying is I felt like you didn't care was because putting yourself in that scenario where you'd be so on the ledge is not really a proactive, well thought out game.

I was not averse to you ending up in FTC with me, which is why I did not take my shot at you in F4 in addition to having full faith the challenge would be in Lauren's grasp at F3. The only thing I was saying is Luck factored into your game much more than mine, and I was always steering things into my best interests.

are y’all okay

hi everyone

its 3am

I have pretty all but one response ready to go, and I'm going to drop them all at once like I'm beyonce releasing a new album. I hope them out by your lunch break. Now that I've been able to read every juror's thread, I feel like I'm been able to understand how you all as a whole feel about my game. Thank you SO MUCH for your questions because honestly I came into this FTC feeling super sad and like I wouldn't get the chance to explain my game, but I'm just happy there's any interest all.

I'll see you all in a bit!

closing statement

So, here we are at the end of this arduous FTC. I had written up all my statments long beforehand but as I was going through them statement by statement, I had a huge issue with how I was coming off. I wanted to come off as someone who was self aware and knew what was going on around them, but I never wanted to claim I was some master manipulator.

One of the issues I have in these games is my personality is so quiet and submissive, especially in one on one conversations that people have a hard time believing in my own autonomy, so when I do make a move it is accredited to the people with bigger, stronger personalities. As I was writing my answers, I became increasingly unconfident in the way I was conveying myself, so I deleted them... rewrote them... deleted them... rinse and repeat.

That is basically a summary of how I have been in this game. I care SO much about this game. I have put thought into every single conversation I have with people and that nervousness spills out until I get to a point where I feel like I can't properly talk to people, so I don't. But I always come back. MAybe one day I'll be able to communicate like a normal human being, but for now all I can say is I hope I have conveyed the point that I had a strong grip over many of the rounds, and thought things out 100s of times to end up in the best place possible round after round.

I love everyone for making this an EXPERIENCE for me, as much of an emotional rollercoaster as it was. Thank you and goodnight. <3