hello! it's time to start up my confessional. i'm not one to post /too/ much, but i will try my hardest to keep up with it, haha! so the tribes have been divided and i think i feel safe on mine. i immediately bonded with Francesqua (Franny) and she chose me to be on her team! we have Chase, Ciera, Matt and Dave on our tribe as well.

i don't know what got into me, but i went into gamebotty mode and solidified an alliance of Chase, myself and Franny. I just wanted to lock up the majority if we did lose. who knows, they could think of me as playing too hard and take me out first and i wouldn't have a clue!

i sent out PMs to Ciera and Dave in hopes to talk to them, too. i think that's it for the first night? i think i wound up on a good tribe and if Chase and Franny do have my back then i've got nothing to worry for a few rounds.

the plan in action is to WIN IMMUNITIES we don't want to go to tribal council, but it's always nice to have a back up plan. ;)

alright, well we lost the immunity challenge, which i am shocked about, but at least we have a full proof plan. after the results were posted i IM'd Chase and he asked me who i was thinking. i tossed out Dave's name because he's who i've spoken to less (despite Ciera not showing up for the challenge) and Chase backed me up on that.

since him, Franny and myself have this sort of ~alliance brewing all we needed was one more to make it a lock. Ciera was talking to me and i knew she felt nervous because she didn't show up so when i told her i was leaning towards Dave she took that and ran. so the votes should all fall towards Dave's way, i really can't see anyone shaking things up this early. i think we all want a smooth first round.

i talked to Matt a lot tonight, too. i really wish he was a different character because he's fun to talk to, but he's so ugly. :( not that it should matter, but aligning with a Benry or a Joe would be /appreciated/ more than a Matt, lol. anyways, i was chatting up with him and he offered to work with me. now i said yes, even though i have something with Chase and Franny, but Matt wanted to bring in Chase and Franny to make a foursome and i hopped on that. i told Franny and let her know before Matt informed her, gotta make everyone seem like they're my number one!

i guess i'm in an alliance with Chase, Franny and Matty and Ciera and Dave will, unfortunately, be our scape goats if we keep losing. which i don't plan to, because i do like Ciera, but it doesn't hurt to have a back up plan.

i guess that's it for now, i just want this round over with so we can move on to the next!

phew! i survived my first tribal council. i had a gut feeling that i was going to get on a losing tribe, let's hope it doesn't continue that way. well Dave left in a 5 - 1 vote and everything went smoothly. i think i'm still really tight with Chase/Franny/Matt with Ciera kinda being my option if we have to lose immunity again. i don't plan on losing again, but you see where i'm going with this.

i really have nothing else to report except Franny filled me on Matt wanting to make things concrete with her and i and then Chase tells her the same thing, so i think i am in a pretty good spot.

i'm really for a different tribe to go to tribal, but i think it's going to be us. we all suck at this challenge, hahaha.

we won immunity, yay! and it's not lost on me that i delivered the winning blow. Matt and i crushed that, i was really impressed and happy! so Chase and Franny are still who i'm closest, but Matt is slowly climbing up my social ladder. unfortunately, in my eyes, the lowest man on the totem pole is Ciera, i feel bad, but i think that's how it's going to go.

Franny and i talked and we both agreed that if we lose again that Ciera will be the next to go. i'm 100% sure that Matt will go with it, but i see Chase pushing for a Matt boot. if you want my opinion i think him and Ciera are somewhat tie? i like Ciera, but she's the person i'm least close to and if severing a duo between Ciera-Chase happens as well then i'm all for voting her out next.

Laura just left, i wouldn't mind seeing her daughter leave right after, hahaha.

well, that was the highlight for me the entire game! everyone was speculating that it was gonna be dodgeball and voila, ofc it was. despite being nervous as fuck, it was actually a lot of fun! great game, hosty! anyways, we lost Ciera and Matt right off the bat and it was back and forth for awhile. this challenge was great because it forced gamers to come out. i mean, what i took away from it was that Chelsea, Hali, Kathy, etc are all strong players and i'm sure they have great ties to their tribe; i mean i do, ha.

so it comes down to me vs Hali and i win it for my tribe! omg, it was such an awesome feeling! honestly, i've had this sense of /hatred/ for Hali since the start because i knew she was tough competition from the get-go, but i finally went toe to toe with her and won. it was just a nice ~personal win for myself.

we decided to send Jenn and Matty to Exile Island for obvious reasons. Jenn will most likely be voted out so it's like she didn't even go and Matty has already been. isn't that a Survivor rule? to keep Exile Island pinned to one person, ahaaha.

we get to take the round off and that's great! (and here we thought we gonna be the Brains/Matsing tribe LOL) but we we're all under the impression that a tribe swap is on the horizon. i really feel super secure in my tribe and a swap right now would FUCK up everything. let's just stick to the three tribes and power on! good luck Jaruud and Oronar, i'll be watching Netflix and be on my third beer. thanks for the night off. <3

sigh, well who didn't see this coming. i don't know how i feel about how the tribe swaps went. i don't know if having a majority of your old alliance a good or bad thing. i'm thankful i wound up with Franny, despite me losing Chase, and we got Ciera over Matt. my last parting words with Matt were to trust Chase 100% and good luck! i really hope they survive until the merge; i do believe chonos would still remain strong.

i immediately reached out to Hali and John, only because Hali seems like a good ally and I wanted to talk to her before Chelsea could. they weren't that great and it was dead conversation. i don't know, if i'm going to align with you, i've gotta like you. why would i want to have this 39 day journey with someone who bores me to death or just sucks.

so Franny's talking to me and she has this bond with Chelsea. i mean, it seems sketch and sounds sketch, but if it gets me to the merge then i don't care. i trust Franny, don't get me wrong, just makes me uneasy that she seems so trusting of Chelsea and has already talked to her about us working with. i don't not like Chelsea, she's one of the few people here with a personality, i just don't want her in front of me of importance to Franny.

that's my opinions on my new tribe. oh, we still have Ciera. i mean i'm sure she'll stick with me, i would hope. i did save her ass in the first round.~

alright, like any normal person i freaked out over the tribe swap, but it looks like it worked out great for myself, Ciera and Franny. as long as the Oronar girls and the old Jaruud aren't playing us, i think we're swing votes.

so Franny had been talking to Chelsea and i have been speaking to Christine and we both hit it off with the Oronar girls. we liked each other so much we kinda got ourselves into a foursome alliance. this is good because we have the numbers, but it's also bad because we're also in one with Hali and John. i have no idea why, but Hali and John are targeting the Oronar girls and vice versa with them. i mean i'm not complaining, but if i were them i woulda hooked up with one another and voted out the three people from the same tribe.

Ciera is luckily just floating around the camp, playing a super well UTR game because neither side has brought up her name and i would've put money on her naming being brought up first. weak in challenges and she's a third Chonos.

so right now Franny and i are trying to decide which side we should swing to. i like Chelsea and Christine a lot more than Hali and John, but leaving so many original Oronars in the game makes me weary. i'd love to vote out Hali because she's such a threat and i feel like it'd be sending a message to Chase, too. kinda like, "don't worry about me, i got this. ;)" but she is strong and what if we don't merge for awhile? i don't know, if we go with Chelsea and Christine, i see voting out Hali also having less repercussions than voting for John, yeah, John is useless and hardly ever around, but if we went back on our word with them and voted for John, then i see Hali never trusting us again and holding a grudge, IDK. i could be completely wrong.


we'll see how it plays out, i'm not going to vote until tomorrow. first, i wanna see if i can beat Exile Island and snag something cool. i see your message, Chase. thank you. <3

alright, after MUCH deliberation and going back and forth and weighing out every single possible scenario, i think we finally came to a solution. we thought we should take out the Oronar girls because there's still so many of them left in the game, but we decided to take chance and work with them. Franny did a test and Chelsea was ready to write down Christine's name so i really don't think Oronar is as close as think they are. if we bond with Christine and Chelsea hardcore until merge, i really don't see them flipping.

we came to a decision that John will be the one leaving this round. he's just connected with the least of us and we need Hali to win challenges. also, taking out John i hope sends a message to the other tribe and the boys get scared that if they lose they might vote out Kathy? anyway to help out Chase so we can reconnect with him at merge. Ciera, Franny and myself have been working really hard this round to survive until merge, we just hope it comes to fruition. i think (and hope) that all of our goals are the same. to make sure the original Chonos is Final 5.


ALSO. i found the hidden immunity idol, nbd. i was BEAMING with excitement. so fucking sweet. this gives me so much power and helps me out so much. thank you Chase for sending me! the only person that i told that i have it Franny. hopefully it shows her i'm willing to go to the end with her and that i trust her a lot. i feel like if anyone tells you they have an idol, it's a really good sign of trust.

oh well, that's it! this round is about to conclude. #byejohn who run the world? GIRLS.

that was fucking ridiculous. i don't even know what happened, lol. but i'm very...relieved that Christine is now out of the game. i secretly feel like Franny had a lot to do with her undoing, but i don't mind. Christine did seem weird and when John was adamant about not wanting to vote her and wanted to vote Chelsea; i just thought it was strange.

the vote was set to John because it really was the safest route for us at the time and we got ourselves into that ridiculous girl alliance. what my understanding of this WHOLE mess is that the vote was between Chelsea and John and we all decided to vote out John and then Christine tried to get the vote to switch to Chelsea? it doesn't make sense to me, because i thought we were all aligned, but i guess she valued him over her ex-tribe mate.

so i voted for John and i'm ready to roll and Franny starts showing me all these messages from John/Hali about Christine trying to SWITCH the vote to Chelsea. i know i wanted to keep Christine, because me and her got super close, but that just rubbed me the wrong way. like the vote was set, why try to start shit when you're NOWHERE near a target. then i find out that John and her made a "super secret alliance" just like she made one with me. the bitch's torch was already out before we hit tribal.

i still don't feel bad for her. she told me she was voting for John and even during tribal she tossed her vote to Chelsea. i don't know if it was a blindside or not, but she lied to me about that, too! her being out of the game has made it much more peaceful. :3

so post-Christine and everything has chilled out a lot. nothing has gone on over here at ALL> at least when we won at Chonos we still talked game, but nope. if it's not time to vote then these girls (and John) don't even strategize. I love that i can sit there and be gamebotty with Franny, though. <3

good, look at me go from OTT to INV in just one round. i made up with John and kept pounding it into Hali's head that i want to work with come merge. truth is, i like Chelsea the most out of the three. but let's just see how this plays out. i think i obsess and overthink myself.

crossing my fingers and PRAYING that Chase just comes out alive. i really couldn't care less who leaves as long as Chase and Matt survive. i wonder if they'll be true to us and reunite come merge. i mean Chase did send me to Exile Island, so that has to be something. how idiotic will i look if Chase ends up screwing me and Franny, ha.

literally nothing else to report. i'm ready to merge already.

sigh x10000

i can't believe that Chase was voted out. that means that blue/red must've teamed up with each other and went after Chonos? ugh, i really thought we were gonna hit merge and ride it to the end. this fucking sucks, i feel like i have to re-think everything.

so Franny and I assessed the situation and decided to throw the immunity challenge. if we win this challenge then the obvious vote is Matt (he isn't very social to begin with and he's a Chonos. i just feel like ----> easy vote) and he is a guaranteed number for us. and we go in to the merge 6 - 4 because i don't trust for a second that Hali and John will stick with us. at least if we throw the next two challenges, we know at most it could be 5 - 5 and we have a shot. plus, i have my idol and i can use it come merge when we unleash hell on those boys.

if we lose this challenge we're taking out John. he slipped up and told me he's close with Fabio/Matty and let's sever that!

well, so much for trying to throw this immunity. Ciera, myself and Franny both tried really hard to throw, but John, Hali and Chelsea just beasted that entire competition. it's okay though, because i was going back and forth on what i should do. i wanted to throw it to take out John, but i knew we would have to split the votes between John and Hali and we would've lost Hali's trust. we're losing Matt this round, most likely, but Franny and i are thinking of ways to bounce back.

she has a huge plan in the works and if we follow it will be full proof. the first part and the hardest part and getting in good with Hali. we need Fabio and the only way to get him is to keep John and Hali on our side. i'm worried that they'll side with Oronar come merge, but who knows. i mean if we are losing Matt this round then original Chonos is down to three and that doesn't look threatening at all, right?


UGH. i just wanna play my idol and take out Tyler or Kathy. -_-

happy merge!

i did it! i made the merge! it's actually a pretty awesome feat when you see what you're up against. i mean, this game was not filled with inactives or anything like that and big players left pre-merge (ie. Christine & Chase) so i feel good about myself. i'm not halfway, but i at least made the merge! and i have an idol in my back pocket, too. so i feel pretty powerful.

so let's get down to business, what do i have to cover? Franny/Chelsea/Ciera/myself are rock solid and totally have each others backs. Glam4! <3 that's who i want to be in the final 4 with because i like all those girls and i think i'd go to the end with all of them? i'm not sure. i know Franny and Chelsea are tight, but i've been chatting with Chels a lot recently so who knows.

John still makes me weary, but i think it's just the way he types. sometimes he's really talkative and other times he isn't so it all depends. i mean, i get along with Fabio, which i'll get to in a minute, and Hali so i can't see John going rogue and just trying to take out say me or Franny? Hali is cool, but again hard to read. she fades in and out and i never really get to the meat of the game with her. hell, her idea of getting together and voting Christine was like "we're all awesome! let's keep each other!" which i can appreciate, but it's frustrating when you need information from her, haha. or when you want a solid answer.

so, Fabio IM'd me last night and he relays a message to me from when Chase and him were on a tribe together. they must've been close because Fabio told me he wanted to work with me basically from hearing all the good stuff Chase told him about. i really like Fabio, he's so much fun and we have so much common! it kinda makes me nervous because i think i might like him better than Franny/Ciera/Chelsea :X but naah! i don't think so...maybe.

so to me, the people on the outs aka the people who i don't really know or care for are Matty, Brett and Tyler. i hooked back up with Matt and it was like nothing has changed. he's such a cool dude. and luckily he sided with Fabio during the swap so that's good for me. Matty makes me scared because he's been to Exile so much. i know i have a hand in him going so much, but i wanted to pin it all on one person and i did so let's take him out! and then there's the two Oronar boys, Brett and Tyler. i don't mind seeing either of them leave this round. i'd prefer Tyler, because i think he's more threatening, but if it's Brett then i'm fine with that. if one of them goes then the numbers go to me and i can feel good about going forward with the people i like.

well, i guess that's it for now! Chelsea won immunity, go girl~ so now it's time to play the game. i'm nervous, but i don't think i'm in trouble. the goal is to take out Brett or Tyler so let's see if i can pull it off.

alright, just a quick little update in here. two hours later, i bonded pretty well with Matty and Fabio and i told them i'm putting all my trust into them. Ciera, Franny and i have been planting seeds of making the vote be Tyler this round and i think it's working. bar the little tantrum throw by Matt, i think everyone is set on voting for Tyler.

we'll see how long this sticks. i'll vote when i get home from work. i would really love Tyler to be gone, please.

yay! i made jury! i can't believe that we are halfway done with this game already! it still blows my mind that i made it this far, too. so last night happens and Tyler goes home in a 10 - 1 vote. it's so awesome because in Tyler's last ditch effort he was throwing shade on Fabio. i loooooove Fabio, but i'm glad that he kinda blew his game up in a way to put him on the spot.

so Tyler is out and tbh what he said in his last statement was kinda true. he didn't have anyone and he was a free agent and people could have used him for his vote, which is why i wanted him out first. look, i have my allies and i have my team; i didn't need anyone else. Tyler was a free agent and anyone could have absorbed him and walked away with the numbers. thank God i was telling everyone he lied about his items in immunity to paint him as untrustworthy and it was a done deal. Tyler leaving was crucial for Ciera, myself and Franny to make final 3.

now we're waiting for immunity. Franny wants to use Brett and take out a Jaruud, but it makes me nervous because i don't want to have to do damage control with Fabio and have him hate me. :( we'll see how it goes. Matt really wants Brett gone so it all depends on him, unless he'll comfortable with take out Hali or John, but i don't see it happening. Franny wants to promise him that after this round we'll boot Brett, but i don't see Matt taking the bait. IN A PERFECT WORLD i would love to have Matty leave. dude's been to Exile three time and it scares me. if there's a way to take him out this round then i would be all for it. and if Fabio doesn't hold grudges then he becomes all mine. <3